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2009-07-07T17:42:00.001+08:00

2009-05-01T19:13:00.003+08:00

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Blinded by the lights

2009-05-01T13:18:00.006+08:00

Closed off from love

I didn't need the pain

Maths hwk 1.1 to 1.4

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

Econs read and understand everything tht's been taught

'Cause when I'm with him I'm thinking of you

Biology read up on the yummy enzymes

You got a piece of me

PI think of creative strategies!!

'Cause if you jump I will jump too

4e3 :D

2009-05-01T11:53:00.003+08:00

Happy labor day people!
Labor = work; so get your ass off and start working. Wahahaha.

Yesterday was Vince's birthday cum bball bbq cum 4e3 dinner. Of all days, everything had to clash ytd lol. Plus I was having that time of the month for the 2nd time in April. -.-" Vanessa said tht's healthy, LOL. That explains the freaking outbreak of pimples :( and the come-and-go-away pms. The PI helped a lot more by making me rush from 10pm to 3am on Tuesday night and 2pm to 4pm on Wednesday afternoon before submitting it for supposedly final submission. My eyes went @.@ staring at the computer screen for hours.

So yesterday, school ended at 4pm because there was a maths retest going on. So I went canteen to eat and talk nonsense with SQ. He asked me to go collect Vince's bday cake(which in the end turned out to be jelly instead). But then the maths retest ends at 6? So no point collecting so early right. Then feeling bored, we ate instant noodles. Stupid boredness, always make me eat to fill up the time and feel better, LOL. YM came awhile later. Thenthenthen after eating we went library bec the weather was so freaking hot. At 5.30pm, I went down to bball court for the bball bbq(which actually isn't a bbq? they catered food? lol) and look look around. Then 6pm, YM and SQ went collect cake, they took the wrong cake in the end, lol. Bec there were 2 cakes in the fridge, then these 2 guys suddenly came up to us and told us we took their cake and they were smiling and grinning I thought they were just joking lah, LOL. Okay so after the maths retest, we celebrated by singing the universal birthday song and Stephen splashed a liquid consisting of egg yolk plus icelemontea onto Vince. Hahaha. It was like eeeewww.. Then he wanted to take revenge and ran after some guys. xD

Then I took one bite of the jelly and went off to bball court already. Btw, the jelly looks really really nice! Haha, but I don't really fancy agaragar. But the appearance is nice. :D Koped one curry potato from the bball side and went off with SQ and YM to mrt station. Trained to toapayoh, waited for slowpoke and then went Orchard to meet up with the rest! :D Some of us had yoshinoya while others had pepperlunch. I wasn't hungry bec of all the food I've been filling my tummy with during the 2hours wait for the maths retest to end. So I ordered one large icepeachtea and shared wafflefries with slowpoke. I forgot I was having it, and drank such a big cup of cold drink! :X It was nice just sitting around chatting about our schools. Sometimes I really envy those in polys. :/ Then Trina showed GuoGuang one of her books, and GG showed to SY, JH and me. Three of us who take Econs immediately said it's a demand and supply graph when he pointed to us a graph. But it actually turned out to be a maths graph, like lol! Seeee, econs' fault! Hahaha. Then we decided to go for "supper". Eat eat eat, that's my biggest pleasure. :D that's where all my $$ goes to toooo. Eh then there was this orchard longest catwalk stage or smth going on with all those models catwalking. Trained home and it was so crowded tht GG and Trina went into the train and the door closed. Lol so Rebecca SY and me waited for the next train and reunited with them in our 2nd train. Oh yeah I like Rebecca's hair! So cool, short, with a tiny long plaited hair at the end. :) So tired tht I fell aslp immediately when I lied down after bathing. :D

Todaay, I'm going to the macs to do my maths! I have to go out and do bec I've no GC. :( Which macs idk :O Khatib? Amk? Abit lazy to go out.. But still I'm craving for fries, as always. Sunday doing GPP, hope everything turns out well!

Next week's gonna suck. Literature drama. :O I'm gonna be acting as a living dead. I really reaaally hope I don't get a lot of lines :(

And I got my PI back ytd! She said everything's EE already except the strategies part, so I'm given another chance to improve on it. But I'm really really braindead already laaaah. I've got 5 days left, this time it's for real, the nation's deadline. Helppppp!

I've got photos but am lazy to upload. Will be up in facebook soon, when I feel like it. :)

Byebye and have a nice long weekend (not)

就让回忆永远停在那里

2009-04-29T00:10:00.005+08:00

Today marks the day of my submission of PI. (in a few hours time when I wake up)
Exceeding Expectations(EE) to get a chance to get A for PW.
Idk if it's possible, but I knw I've already tried my best.
I feel ~~happy~~ contented seeing my once used to be lousy PI becoming better and better after countless of drafts. Perfect? No such thing. Close to perfection is enough. Doing one's best is enough. Is anything ever enough in this world?

Thanks all who helped. Really really appreciate it! ♥

"You have to stand for something, or else you will fall for anything." Got this from Christina. Haha, somehow it shouts out to me. I seem to be falling for anything anytime easily.

再一次, 就像我所预料的, 我又无法自拔地向我的心投降了.

再说我爱你可能雨也不会停

shoes exchange day

2009-04-28T17:21:00.004+08:00

My left and right leg, one big one small O.o Her nametag is so big compared to mine! :(

Today is shoes exchange day between charmaine-cherrissa-christina-millie. We all wore unmatching shoes. That's what happened when you get him as your econs tcher, -.- All sg20 girls were lying down at the last period :O I didn't realise till I woke up.

I basically learnt nothing in school today, every Tuesday actually.

My stomach felt flater after PE, wahahhahaha. :D

Zhss tomorrow?

I missss.

roller coaster ride

2009-04-27T23:53:00.005+08:00

I hate you.

Can't believe I'm saying this.
I know you'll make me change my mind again tmr.
you always bring me up and down.
Hate youuuuuu!
I swear it's gonna stay this way as long as possible,
I won't give in no matter how much my heart wants to.
Asshole.

I know my heart will waver. If not it'll be over long ago.
Yes, I don't deny it.
But I'm gonna resist it this time round,
I promise.

and that you is not who you think you is.

2009-04-27T21:33:00.005+08:00

this is a paper bag from some chocolate factory.

i want chocolates to cheeeer me up right now!

Happy meal after school today at Khatib. Thankkkks for accompanying me, lol. The toy is coool, it needs a complete circuit to light up, like you press one side and another guy press the other side, nothing happens. But when you both press a side each and hold each others' hands, it lights up. Get what I'm trying to say? NO? Too bad. :)

I got 2 Cs today, Maths and Chinese. Contented already, whatever.

GC gone.

Phone gone.

fuckoff.

Thunder

2009-04-26T13:44:00.004+08:00

I felt so contented last night after finishing my PI(although it's not perfect, but at least there's improvement...) and most importantly, 95 bio MCQs, which I scored 64. :D Have been trying to find excuses not to touch bio for so long, ever since I dropped to H1, and idk what happened, but I just felt the urge to do some bio this weekend, LOL. This morning woke up and studied Econs, waaah very confusing, :(

I'm left with Lit and Maths. Literature is really driving me mad, it's damn bloody tough, so different from what I've learnt before. :( Maths, I think I'll fail the next test, I'm totally lost, and I can't even revise or do my hwk w/o my gc.

I've a stupid flu, in this scorching hot weather? :O

I hear thunder. :D

Fallen.

2009-04-25T12:41:00.009+08:00

Disappointed.

what went wrong?

But never mind,

IT'S OVER.

hardwork doesn't always pay off.

work SMART not HARD.

I just need to have... :D

17 again!

2009-04-24T22:31:00.006+08:00

Today was super ultra HOT ! >:( Spoil me mood, boo. But nice thing happened early in the morning, I went for my happy meal breakfast. HOTCAKES. :D And the toy was cute! I wna collect 'em all ~ xD Walked to school from Khatib, was a few minutes early so sat the bus stop, hahaha. I don't like going school early standing at the quadrangle looking dumb. :)

Bio, omg for the first time in 3 weeks I brought my bio notes! LOL. :X And I was freeeezing, with the fan and aircon on :O Maths, totally lost hais. Felt even more lost w/o my gc anymore. :(

Literature, free period, then went to eat and library next cus it was freaking HOT!! Omg, can die. Uh then consultation for PI :O Didn't go for PE, as usual :X Lalalas, then they told me my name's not in the list :D HAHAHA, not my fault, I did inform before, I've done my job. :D I can pon pe forever already, heck.

Was in container classroom before Chinese, and something scary happened at the end when we'll leaving, and I screamed like hell :X Chinese test, omfg super chim like O.O And the heat in the classroom was soooo intense tht I felt super pekchek and irritated. Tsk, suckkkkkkks. I look at the Chinese words and I feel like giving up already, some alien words I've never seen before.

Walked to Khatib alone when school ended. Almost the whole J1s still having lessons. Uh then trained to AMK hub meet WQ for 17 again! :D Nice nice ~ I WANNA WATCH THE MOVIE 'UP' ! Super COOOOOL, like millions of balloooooons, flying house, etc. :D

I feel like sleeping,
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

:(

My GC misses me just like how I miss it. :O

LOST

2009-04-23T22:01:00.005+08:00

Weather's scorching hot, >:(

Charmaine's lost in Maths Econs Bio. Lit? Idk, nth much to study for tht, cus everything's like unseeeeeeen? Someone help !! Getting back stats results tmr, *crosses fingers* Chinese test tomorrow, hmmm.

Consultation for PI tomorrow, omg I hate PI to the core. >:( Then most probably going to container classroom during the breaks to continue my PI, so can't go for the match already.. Rawr, damn PI I hate PI. Who doesn't? Asssssssss.

Woke up half an hour late today like omfg -.-" And to think tht I slept SO EARLY last night! :(

Mac breakfast tomorrow YAY!
17 again tomorrow YAY!

I miss my GC. :(

MISSING

2009-04-22T21:44:00.008+08:00

MISSING.

Can the thief please kindly return it to me? :(

OMFG I LOST MY BELOVED GRAPHIC CALCULATOR.
(my precious nicely decorated calculator, which SQ "stole" on Monday &brought it home bec he's jealous of it, which Royston laughed at saying my calculator looks disfigured, I bet he's just jealous as well, HAHAHAHA.)

When? How? WHY???

Wtf I deserve to be shot. >:(
Less than 1 month ago, I lost my WALLET (yesyes, on April FOOLs somemore)
Today, I realised I lost my GC. $#%#$%# $150 GONE, in like only 2 months?!? Idk how to tell my parents, shitxzxzx. :( Andand I don't know if I lost it yesterday or today, cus I haven touch maths for very long already. Tonight I wanted to be a good girl and do my maths hw, but realised my GC missing %#$%# :( And I'm laggin behind in Econs, idk what's going on anymore, super lost in Aminah's lecture, I just sit there and pretend to KNOW and mouth some words, LOL?!? -_- Can't wait for the weekends to come!!

SHOOOOOOOOOOT ME! >:(

cheerup!

2009-04-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

I realised I forgot to post this picture up ><

-

CHEEEEEERUP CHEEEEEEEERUP ! :D

(I'm the cheering up apple? in my pw group o.o?!)

Container Classroom!

2009-04-21T21:06:00.008+08:00

Rained early in the morning, was late for school (actually). Like 5min late. But it wasn't counted as late, yayyy! ^^ We(Christine, me and another yj girl idk) were desperately trying to hire a cab from Khatib for 5min and at exactly 7.40, Christine's dad passed by and so we hopped on^^

Ponned mass pe :/ Cuz I didn't bring my pe shirt. Hurhur. Library with some of my SG mates who ponned too! Lol. Then went to eat before going for lit lecture. Finished The Power Of One today. Nice movie, very scary bloody scenes too :O See already made me feel colder lo, even with my jacket on. Hahaha.

Then uh went library basement to SLEEEEEEEEP. (2hour break!) Omg so nice okay, finally able to catch some proper sleep! Joined shortly later on by Regina Royston YuhKae. Then after her Chemistry, Christina came to join. Uhuhuh, then econs tutorial, omg waste of time. I realised my brain's become so rusty after not touching Econs for a week or so already T_T

Break for 1.5hours next, not 2.5 :X Uh, went container classroom, for the FIRST TIME. Hahaha so suaku, idk what's a container classroom like :O And Royston don't know too and Regina was saying Zhonghua ppl blablabla LOL! :/ Hais, I miss Zhss ._. Crapped for the 1hour, and we saw something FUNNY, ROFL. Seriously like omg, tcher, shirt, pants, underwear, hang, bench. LOLOL. Infer urself xD Can't believe it man, so funny.

Ahhhhhhh then, CT time. Before that Cherissa Cheng(CC!) went with me to canteen to buy food. Yeah then I went up alone to my venue. Hahaha, had this international friendship day presentation by SAMUEL. Lol omg super funny guy, he can be a lecturer next time eh ! ._.

Wanted to get Ben&Jerry's free cone, but queue super duper ultra long so forget it... Next time then buy :D Went to cut hair at Srng Central AGAIN. 2nd time cutting hair in 3 days. :O

I wanna sleep liao, TIREDTIRED. :(

Goodnight.

Give up, giving up, given up(?)

2009-04-21T00:33:00.004+08:00

HI HO DEE MERRY O !

It's past midnight, I'm here to rant once again. History of last Monday is repeating itself. School till 5.10pm, training till 8pm, PI draft from 10pm to 2am. Exact replay of last Monday! Hahahaha. I'm so loving PW man ! 7 more months to go... Ends exactly on my 17th special day. Know my PW group today already, okay lah, not bad, enthu members. :D But there's bound to be conflicts along the way... :O I still can't think of NEW , REFRESHING , CREATIVE damn strategies for my PI, wahahaha. Someone drank up my brain juice already.

"What's the most spontaneous element in the periodic table?" -Nitrogen = N2 = enthu :D

"What's the element in the periodic table that is always rejected?" -Sodium = NA = rejected

HAHAHA, from my SG mate. ;D

Then I got bored and wasted my 2hours telling lame cold jokes to my friends in MSN. :O Either that or play around with Facebook ._. Did like 10% of edition to my PI draft only, omg die.

Had otahs, sushi, bread, icecream for dinner. Just had milk and brushed my teeeeeth. Gonna sleep SOOOOOOOOOOON, heck about PI laaaaa >:( idiot.

&&MY HAIR IS SO SHORT SERIOUSLY I FEEL LIKE CRYING. HOW TO MAKE IT GROW FASTER?!!? I MISS MY LONG LONG HAIR ._. The ponytail is so freaking ugly when I tie up my hair! :( Andand, pimple outbreak %#%#$. Seriously sucky, the way my life is now.

I'm i'm i'm going to get ben&jerry tomorrow. i am i will i must. HAHAHA. sucker.

Shall sleep during my 2hours break tomorrow in the morning and another 2.5hours break in the afternoon. Mass PE... Should I pon?!?

Hate you.

Pasta Mania

2009-04-19T21:17:00.007+08:00

Today = happy. :D

Woke up kinda early, alarm rang at 8am, I kept snoozing it till 9am. -.-" Hahaha. Then started doing my literature hmk, omg so chim I felt like crying, ROFL. Right... So anyway, Disgrace kept distracting me. I finally finished reading it! In 3 days xD Rz(my senior) told me he used 3 months to read that book, lolol. :D
Though there're some weird parts I dont get it. Hahaha, and TKAMB is nicer eh... I miss literature of 2008 ! :( Then stupid literature poetry hwk pissed me off, I came online for awhile then prepared to go out.

Met Jaslyn and WeiQi for PastaMania at HougangMall ! :D Wah, super long never see Jaslyn already. Got grow shorter not?!? She's like one head taller than me T_T

Then after lunch went to shopshop luh. Need a new schoolbag! :O Nike waterbottle... Hmmmmm :/ Then went to cut hair :O They two kept asking me to cut! LOL. Now my fringe is straight... And I told the hairdresser to cut 2 INCHES, but she cut like 3 or 4 INCHES?? Omg , now so short already T_T

Went NTUC, queued up so loooooong for three eggs and mentoes. LOL. KinderJoy! :D Lalalaaaaa, reminiscene of childhood times, it was called KinderSurprise or something last time? Hahaa.

Met Jasmine Jas JiaHan afterwards and homed.

Peeeektures below! :D

I came home around evening, one whole afternoon gone! :O LOL. Had the intention of chionging my hwks and revise, but no moood seriously. Idk where to begin with lah. PI is %#%#$. Literature is ... Idk, so gonna fail the test on Wed. :( Econs, Idk where we are at, I was "sleeping" last lecture. Maths, I was copying blindly off the board last lesson cus mind too tired to think or focus. Chinese, always talking crap only. GP, okok baaaah. Bio, i dont understand a shit, keep talking to Brandon only LOL. Omggggosh. Siannnnn, I feel like dying giving up whateverrrr . But I knw I can't . Charmaine jiayou!!!!

I'm so gonna sleep by 11pm. Hwk undone, PI undone, whatever. Leave everything to tomorrow. Have a feeling history's gonna repeat itself tomorrow again, like how I chionged PI from 10pm to 2am last monday, I think the same will happen tomorrow. :(

I hate how weekends past so fast :(

Byebyeee.

twist of fate

2009-04-18T18:57:00.003+08:00

sometimes I wonder how my life would be different if I had put cjc as one of my choices before tpjc. :O maybe Christine and I'd have stayed on there if that had happened. would I be more motivated, more stress than now? :O

but i've got to let that thought pass, what's done is done.

move on. easier said than done.

my phone's dead. im lazy to revive it. contact-less with the world out there nanana ~ :D except through MSN...

Who wanna have lunch with me tomorrow?
I'm dying to get out there and spend some money on unnecessary stuff.
I have no idea why. Lol. Just feel like it, I know I suck. >:(
An idiot called me an ingrate for taking cab to school. HAHAHA :D
But that's the only way I can feel better(?) Idk, is it that easy??

Poem

2009-04-18T13:57:00.003+08:00

First Poem for You
by Kim Addonizio

I like to touch your tattoos in complete
darkness, when I can't see them. I'm sure of
where they are, know by heart the neat
lines of lightning pulsing just above
your nipple, can find, as if by instinct, the blue
swirls of water on your shoulder where a serpent
twists, facing a dragon. When I pull you

to me, taking you until we're spent
and quiet on the sheets, I love to kiss
the pictures in your skin. They'll last until
you're seared to ashes; whatever persists
or turns to pain between us, they will still
be there. Such permanence is terrifying.
So I touch them in the dark; but touch them, trying.

-

I wanna watch 17 again.
I wanna sleep forever (can't believe I slept so early last night and woke up so late today D:).
I wanna finish my PI perfectly for the last time.
I wanna eat mac breakfast before school on Friday.
I wanna train my stamina and run the 2.4km under 15minutes.
I wanna the weekend to last forever.
I wanna finish my homework by tonight so I can slack tomorrow.
I wanna meet up with 4e3 for dinner (soon soon!:))
I wanna forget .
I wanna everything that I want.
i wanna i wanna i wanna !

TGIF

2009-04-17T19:17:00.004+08:00

Dale ~! :D

Today was boring shitzxzxz. Hahaha. Woke up so early in the morning for nothing. No mac breakfast. No 2.4km. :( Walked to school from Khatib with slowpoke and Christineeee. :D Reached just in time, was the last to walk in the school gate, wahahaha^^ niceniceee.

Bio, zzz. Sat the back of the lab, talked throughout with Brandon, LOL. We always talk about his secondary and my secondary school stuff during Bio because I know Fabian and he knows Royston.

Maths, omg idk what's going on, wasn't concentrating too tired :O And everyone kept eating my sweeets hahaha, the more i eat the more thirsty i felt the more i wanna drink the more i wanna go toilet, LOL.

Finally got Disgrace in literature! ^^ Hahaha, yeah full of sexual imagery, starting right from the first page. Lolol. The book is so damn nice and WHITE. But now it isn't anymore, abit dirty after taking it out from my bag, i have no idea why :(

Finally BREAKIEEE. :D Was super hungry during literature luh, he read the novel to us then I was struggling to keep up by keeping awake. But very difficult to do so with an empty mind and empty stomach :O Can't write in the book toooo. Hmmm...

So after lunch, I pon PE! :D Heeh, lazy tired plus weather was so HOT! :( So went library basement, wanted to do literature, the comparison of 2 poems, chim like hellzxzx, I gave up and fell asleep till my hands went numb after I woke up when my phone rang. I think I'm gonna fail lit test next week. :( HAAAAIS.

Chinese next, let SQ read my lit book cus I knw he'll love it, LOL :X Was supposed to enact out the text in the textbook for Chinese, but my group didn't even do anything , hahaha. Lucky no time for us ;D Then tcher gave us icepopsicles !! :D Heh , so nice ^^

After that, my day ended. I went library to read Disgrace for one hour, then uh supposed to go home with slowpoke. But Christine wanted me to pei her till her cca start. So I pulled SQ along too ^^ Then she went for cca already, SQ and I walked to Khatib and trained home.

This weekend is gonna suck. :( Literature poetry which idk how to do. Literature poetry test next week. PI 2nd draft next tuesday. What more what more ~ :(

I'm hungry.

Bye.

missing 4e3 snydrome

2009-04-16T20:47:00.007+08:00

Helloooo hellooooo. :)
After maths test today, I'm feeling like so relieved or should I say relaxed.
LOL. I think I put too much stress on myself for Maths already T___T" Keep panicking during the test :O It's like for Bio I don't even feel so stress lah ! (because I knw I'll still fail in the end for bio... everytime) But anyway, no more A for Maths alreaddddyyyy, but I'm still happy it's OVER. For now, at least. ^^

Tiring day today, like superrrrrrrrr. I even wanted to doze off during Aminah's lecture, but those who knw her know the consequences... So I sorta just stoned there. Then suddenly she was looked at me lah :( And because normally we have to repeat after her and I didn't (I was like half-awake actually) she scolded me. Then heads turned around :O Hahaha. And funny thing is, after lecture, Genevieve sitting beside me thought Aminah was referring to her while Brandon sitting infront of me thought she was referring to him. LOL.

And Maths test right after Econs lecture, freezing my ass off in the auditorium with a throbbing headache due to tiredness and coldnesss. This happens everytime for Maths test, rawrrr. Then I just quickly rush through the paper and finished it in less than an hour, so did the paper twice. But yeah, some dont know how to do so byebyeeeee ~

Whatever, the feeling was super GREAT after the test !! :D So I went Northpoint with my SG mates and had subwayyyy. :D Shared with Cherissa my egg mayo. ;)

I MISS 4E3 SO DAMN MUCH RAWR :(
I miss Daniel Angeline Cheryl Benjamin Royston Charmaine Carrissa Gabriel DianXiang Rebecca Melissa Claire Grace Clarina Ian Jaslyn Jasmine Jason Joshua Adeline ShuFen JiaHui JessicaL SohLeng SoJeong Nathaniel GuoGuang Nicole XingJie Keziah Ronathan JessicaS Vanessa ShinYing Pearlie JunJie WeiQi Trina Winona KaiSiang KimLi !!!
LOLOLOL. Basically, everyone. :D (well not exactly all but majority!)
Charmaine - I'm missing the Charmaine of 2008, LOL :(
Jasmine and WeiQi - I just saw them yesterday, and we meet up quite often, so it's still okay. :)
JiaHui - We see each other around in schoool, go school together, sometimes go home together so yeah, see each other every school day!
Royston - Same class so...
Then the rest of 4E3 ... Have not even see any of them for months already!! Lol.
SoJeong - More than a year... after she left us.
Idk if I'll even get to see her ever again? Hmmmmm...
Just called Adeline today during my break. :D Then she called me too while I was on the way home. Lalalas, we're gonna plan a 4E3 dinner soooooon :D
I miss the teachers who taught us too, seriously.
Having MsTan with us lalaland people during Bio, I miss those bio lessons !! :(
Even MsOng's constant naggings and stuff for Chemistry... :(
Ms Ow's literature lessons... :(
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaiis .

Oh well, things will get BETTER IN TIME (that's what I keep telling myself).
I mean, eventually, the time will come when things take a turning point in life?
Lolol, I have no idea what i'm actually talking about, but I'm trying to try to be optimistic. It's hard, especially on some nights when I get all emo and start thinking too much, and I thank those who've been there for me always. ;D

Things can't go back to what it was like last year. I must adapt.adapt.adapt. Accept what life throws at me. Overcome all odds and obstacles. Don't withdraw when people reach out to me. Life can't change for me so I shall change for a better life. Yesyesyes I can do it.

(Hahaha pardon my post today, it's more like for myself. ;))

S.U.M.O !!
(Shut Up and Move On)

I slept at 8pm on Tuesday night(I had bball trng on Monday till 8pm, chionged PI from 10pm to 2am, slept for 4hours only), waking up only at 9am on Wednesday morning. :D Totally coolness, I didn't even stir an inch for the 13 hours!! But surprisingly my smses were seeeen, omg ?!? Did I do that unconsciously or what?!?

ps. I feel like such an idiot, haven even touch any of my homework or sch-related stuff since I came back. rawrh, just cus maths is over and im relaxed VERY VERY relaxed.. zzz. and there's lit test nxt week which I will fail :O

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE <3

PROOF

2009-04-14T18:27:00.005+08:00

She's going to ~~proof~~ prove you wrong by showing you the proof.

that she can do it. ;)

better in time -

Am back from schoooooool! ;)

Can't believed I survived the entire day w/o feeling very very sleepy, slight sleepiness yes.

Wanted to sleep during the 2hours breakie, but ..... ._.

Got my literature book Proof yesterday.

Still waiting for Disgrace! :D

A for Chinese.

B for _____.

C for Maths.

D for _____.

E for _____.

S for Econs.

U for Biology.

HAHAHA ^^ I think more than half the cohort failed econs, :D

Yesterday during training I kept feeling giddy when moving fast :O

And Vicky said my face looked pale. Yayyy ghostly.

Now my head feels super duper heavy, IT'S TIME FOR CHARMAINE'S EVENING NAP ! ;D

Gooooood evening, see ya in lalaland ~:D

2am

2009-04-14T02:01:00.001+08:00

CHARMAINE IS FINALLY DONE WITH HER WONDERFUL PI! :DDD

And it's 2am now, time for a 4 hours nap, LOL.
I seriously wonder how I'm gonna survive tomorrrow, I hope I can run track, make me AWAKE for lessons. Raaaaaah.

Waiting for my PI to be printed, the printer is making SO MUCH NOISE and everyone's asleep already, tsktsk.

Gooooooooodmorning, happy tuesday!^^

EMERGENCY!!!

2009-04-14T01:10:00.001+08:00

Charmaine is trying to race against time.
Charmaine is fighting a losing battle against time.
Charmaine is dying because of PI!

Look at the time nowwww, 1.07am !
And I'm STUCK in my PI, which is due TOMORROW, or rather TODAY, later on, omgomgomg.

Shouldn't this be viewed as an EMERGENCY?
LOL, for PW task HAHAHA.

Okay, just kidding.
I'm doing conservation! :D

Okaaaaay, how do I complete my PI ?
Can anyone help me fill in the missing gaps?
Goshhh this sucks T_T

Gonna take a sweet short nap later on before going school -.-"
There's like ECONS REFLECTION TEST(which I have not studied for, plan to like squeeze some time in sch tmr for that :O) and PE first thing in the morning. And I just had training todayyyyy(reaching home 9plus, bathe, dinner 10pm then start on PI -.-), am already dying from all these. Physical, mental, emotional exhaustion, RAWR :(

Crap, can't believe I'm still wearing my contacts at this time, like for 20 hours already lah :O
D-R-Y.
But lazy.
Haiiiiiis .

Die with me in school tomorrow, world.
Gonna sleep during PE.
Gonna sleep during literature.
Gonna sleep during the 2 hours break.
Gonna sleep during econs.
Gonna sleep during the 1h30min break.
Gonna sleep during CT time.
YAYYYYYYYYY!

happy EASTER day!

2009-04-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today is EASTER day.

I went out with amfc again to grab a bite at Swensens. ;)

Brenda didn't come. :(

But it's okay, I just met her a few days ago. Hahas.

Before that, I had lunch at home.

Eat until full full already,

then my mum started bringing out Ben&Jerry's icecream.

Omg, tempting xD

How can Charmaine say no to icecream? x)

Actually I had in mind the topless 5 all to myself in Swensens later on, LOL.

FATTENING I know, ^^

Not my first time having 5 scoops in one seating already ;D

So I ate this full of chocolatezxzxz tub of icecream! :)

Then left home, headed to meet up with them!
WeiQi and me were the earliest, hmmmm.
Then I went to buy comb and earrings. x)
I shared the golden fries and topless 5 with laopo! <3>

After eating went to buy cake and then go Popular and homeeee. Yup, so sad we could only afford a few hours (Christine JiaHui me) because of our heavy workload plus the much dreaded PI. And I've got bio test tomorrow omg T_T Reached home and it was dinner time like WAH. I didn't eat much, but drank one whole big bowl of soup! Omggg, fattening much! It's like lunch, swensens, dinner consecutively. LOLOLOL.

Just a few pictures, I can't afford the time for all tonight. PI PI PI. I love youu! Bleah.

Most probably going out for movie in the evening on Thursday after Maths test. :D

Yippee aye aye yippee yippee aye!

Very long never watch movie already! ._.

That's how no life JC is making me to be. T_T

Now I regret not eating dinner, SO HUNGRY :(

Just so you know,

2009-04-11T12:30:00.008+08:00

Lovely day with them <3

It's nice just sitting around doing nothing much, meeting up after so long :)

have not laughed like the world's ending, with my stomach contracting much, tears welling up in my eyes for soooooooooo long. ;D

even though it means my PI is screwed, HAHA :/

last night I thought I saved my work at midnight sharp,

but this morning I realised it wasn't saved like $%#$^# -_-"

&I woke up to a nearing bright day,

looked at my phone to see that it's 6.45am

&stood up in shock, telling my sis we'll be late for school

and she told me today's Saturday. ._.

HAHAHA.

&I feel like just throwing my phone away or lock it up.
Damnnnn freaking %#$^# RAWR.
I hate people who invade privacy of others.
Asssssssss. >:(

I fell asleep smsing JessicaL last night, haha.
Miss her so much too *loves* We both would rather study for Os now, hahaha. My O-lvl studying partner!! :) It's been long since I fell asleep smsing, the last time was during Os LOL :D

"Come on it's just a small problem. Aren't you a very strong person. CHARMAINE told me herself tat she's a strong gal. :D"
Haha thanks loads SQ.
It's funny how things are going the other way round now, when it used to be me asking him to be optimistic and stuff :O
and I realised how scary it is, the rate at which I'm turning vulgar, LOL.
OKAY, STOP IT. I should learn to resist external influences.

i.will.be.alright.again.and.be.back.to.charmaine.SOON. :)

'Cause I'm not coming back
I'm closing the door
I used to be tripping over, missing you
But I'm not anymore

It's best if we don't even talk at all.

wtftw

2009-04-10T12:01:00.001+08:00

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Can someone bury a hole big enough for Charmaine to hide herself into???

OMFG.

2009-04-10T10:04:00.000+08:00

FTW!

every lil bit holding me together is slowly slipping away...

FTWTF

2009-04-08T22:05:00.004+08:00

FTW.
hahahahs, learnt this new word not long ago, people keep telling me different meanings, ah whatever. f the world f everythinggggg!

My life feels so screwed up down left right in out.
I think I'm like plunging into depression soooon, HAHA. Great Depression is coming back, economy downturn and stuff. Charmaine is going into Great Depression soooooooon too. Join the world and be united in being depressed yayyyyyy! One for all, all for one.
Lost my appetite again recently, but nevertheless still FORCED myself to get some food down my throat because I don't wanna suffer gastric pain again. And always end up feeling like puking, yikes. That's why I've come to conclude today that the best thing in life is sleeping, eating comes after it. Because I lose my appetite often, but never will I complain about having to sleep. :D

I pon training today. Not planned actually. But I was so freaking tired, with essay to complete, PI to do, bio test tomorrow and by the time trng ends at 8pm, I reach home bathe eat already almost 10pm. So damn bloody tired alreadyyy how to study?!? Yup you can say I have no perseverance, I suck, whatever. I feel so inferior, MAYBE like what she said I've lost my passion for it, whatever. Have already been sleeping like only 3 hours for the past few nights. And I don't wanna like fail my bio again, but judging by how fast my brain is progressing and absorbing stuff, I think history will repeat once again, failing for the 3rd year for bio. Maybe I shld just pray hope and everything that once again a miracle will happen during the major national exams for bio, HAHA. Right.... Am so glad I'm not taking h2 anymore, damn the spas.

Econs test today was a major screw up. I was super shocked to see one part of a question weighing 17marks like wth? How long am I supposed to write for 17marks for ONE part of a question? What am I supposed to write for that much marks?

The strength of my will is weakning each day... Isn't it supposed to be getting stronger when all these while I've survived these shits? -_-" When the day comes that Charmaine can no longer take it any longer, pleaseeeee push her on pleaseeee don't let her break down and give up NO MATTER WHAT.

My life is already screwed enough as it is. I don't wanna make it worse.

Falling uncontrollably

2009-04-07T17:51:00.007+08:00

Charmaine is going to run 2.4km after school tomorrow, anyone wanna join? :D

Then another 2.4km during trng again.

total: 4.8km :)

and that's excluding trng. just the warmups.

wheeeeeeee!

Just some photos I took from Christine's phone:

Charmaine getting ready to dunk that dummy up there :D

Speak to my hand (lucky I was fast enough... xD)

Christineeeeee!

Charmaine slept at 1am last night.
Charmaine was caught for having "super super short" skirt today (according to my tcher -.-)
Charmaine was so looking to pe today because she felt like running 2.4 (surprising)
Charmaine was disappointed that she didn't get to run today because of having to nomintate house excos.
Charmaine watched a very very nice movie called The Power Of One during lit lecture today, movie was very saddening.
Charmaine went to the library to study Econs during break and was joined by Regina Royston YuhKae(idk how to spell his name :X)
Charmaine then met up with her previous SG mates to eat.
Charmaine went back to the library and went to canteen again, this time to accompany Christine.
Charmaine went for Econs tutorial and was asked if she was attached and want to be YuhKae's wife/gf not :O and obviously ans NO :) (my SG mates started this family thingy o.o eh...)
Charmaine went to library again after that to copy lit stuff xD
Charmaine then went to auditorium for the AEP talk.
Last but not least, she left the school with her slowpoke to Khatib to train home. :D

TRALALALAAAAAAAS .

Many got the new ezlink card already, i haven. Many are complaining HAHA. I don't really wanna get mine as well. :(

ytd was just like six months ago hahahas :) can't believe Os was less than 6 months ago :O seems like it's farfar awayyyyy eh. hehs. i'd rather go back to studying for Os, it was way more fun than now. seriously. bec of one reason or another ;) you don't know how happy i was when i received it. :)

I still can't believe A hasn't gotten over the incident with B. Or at least it seems so to me. The way A talked today. Whyyyyyyy did 4years of frenship turn out this way? Why are relationships so fragile?!? I don't wanna be the reason for it! :(

I MISS ZHONGHUA AND 4E3 :(

Stuck with each other <3

2009-04-06T16:07:00.009+08:00

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared but I don't show it

PIPIPIPIPIPI .

PI, I hate you. >:(

I hate your friend PW too.

Went to see doctor today and got like 40pills o.o

Shocking eh so many -_-"

Weather's so extreme,

was raining just now(the way i love it)

and now the sun's heating up the Earth again.

Maths is driving me crazy.

Yet I'm lovin it. :D

Once I get into the mood, I will keep doing sum after sum,

AHHAHAHAS ^^

provided I know how to do that topic ;)

like I skipped 1.2, did 1.4, skipped 1.5, did 1.7

I wonder where 1.1 1.3 1.6 went to, maybe they went on a holiday and is never coming back again. migrated, maybe.

tralalalalalas ~

Can someone teach me 1.5?? :(

Andand, learning proteins for bio now is really $%#$^.

So cheeeeeeeeeem :(

Seems like chemistry to me you know, what with all those weird linkages and stuff.

arghhhhh.

You know how much I hate chem!

Until last July when I started having last min tuition, I started ~~loving~~ liking chem.

After Os my hate for chem came back.. LOL :)

I miss Ms Tan SL ( the lalaland bio peeps :D) & Ms Ong !

Haisss.

And one more thing.

Today's the 6th.

Last time I didn't go sch before Os was 6Oct.

Wahahaha.

I loveeeee 6! <3

It was my register number in 2007 and 2008.

It's the day of my birthday.

7 more months to my 17th ~

my beloved $150 calculator wahahaha :)

it's becoming a habit bwahahaa ;)

and habits are hard to kick as you and i know *grins ;DD

Should I give up now? before it's too late?

Suitehearts

2009-04-05T15:25:00.007+08:00

Why why why wouldn't the world revolve around me?

"because you aren't the sun." -ShaoQi

I'm missing the days in zhonghua a lot.
I'd rather go back to those days mugging for Os.
I'm missing everybody.
I miss thesix or rather, AMFC.
how we go for recess together, lunch together, etc. we'll meet each other everyday w/o fail. but now, though I have two of them with me in the same sch, things aren't exactly the same anymore w/o the other 3. :(
I miss studying and gossiping(more) with JessL & Jaslyn before Os.
especially that sunday night one day before SS paper when we sat at the stairs to gossip because we had no mood to study SS ^^ totally no sense of urgency even though Os next day hahaha xD And the birthday surprise for me one day before lit pprs, ^^
I miss lessons time with 4e3.
how we pissed the teachers off, not being serious even though Os just around the corner.
I even miss waking up at 8am every weekend to reach CC by 10am to study.
i knw this is weird, but really I miss the CC a lot. hahaha.
I hate how I'm feeling more stress now than mugging for Os.
it's like there's never enough time to finish all my homework AND revise at the same time.
Everyday's like mugging for Os (2x worse)
but sometimes i feel as if im the one giving myself the stress bec when i look around me, people are playing or relaxing.

Hahaha, maybe I'm just being paranoid.

But really, 2 months already, aren't I supposed to be already adapted to the sucky JC system?

I seriously want 2008 back!!!

studying for Os is really way more fun than now. :O really.

I woke up at 9am today(SUPER EARLY), started doing Econs till noon. Was supposed to go AJC for the fair thingy, but last minute something cropped up so.. :( I was stuck at home with my Econs again. I got so fed up and sick of Econs and wanted to go out, even just for a walk, talk, anything to catch up on my friends and revive my social life. But it's so last minute I can't find anyone available :( It's rare I'm feeling unlazy to want to go out at the last minute okay :(

I should give up. It's been hanging on for too long. It's time to get back on the right track, to focus solely on my studies.

SMILE SMILE SMILE. :D

Alright, what's the point of ranting on and on again and again here?

I should go shoot myself now.

(OMG. I tried registering at the nlb web but couldn't so I sent an email to them, to realise that I've actually got an account already. And guess what, my username is sugansux. LOL!!! I think I created one in Sec1 for IPW -.-" (Sugan was in my grp HAHAHA) Omg so crap. And thing is, I can't change my username!! AHHHHHHHHH. I'm gonna be stuck with sugansux for my nlb acc forever and ever and ever(if forever even exist). Sorry Suganeswaran!! >< Gosh :O)

My membership expires on 31/12/2999 . Heh. 2999, my membership goes along with me long after I leave this world too. :)

Bombarded with homework !!

2009-04-04T21:54:00.004+08:00

I feel so screwed.

PI idea
GP essay for SG20

Overdue GP essay for SG04 and compre (I didn't know I've to submit these homework for my previous class for marks for term 1 lah TT)

Maths, whole of Statistics by 16April (but I wanna complete it asap!!)

Biology, MCQ and Structured Ques. (but abit lazy eh... hais.)

Bio retest next Thurs (what to say? lol. failing bio is like so normal for Charmaine, hehs. but Ms Lim promised us chocolates if we passed, or did she say if we do well?!?)

Chinese worksheet (im going to do that HAHAHAHA i already promised not to neglect Chinese anymore o.o)

Econs booklet homework by Wednesday/Thursday

Econs essay test on Wednesday!!

Literature poetry test on 22April

Literature poetry homework (but i've no idea what poems he's refering to actually..)

Is there more?!? Tsk, and I wasted my time sleeping laaaaah :( Last night I said I was going to take a power nap of 2 hours, ended up I slept from 8pm to 10.30am this morning like O.O!! Nobody woke me up or anything, I didn't even wake up once at all in that 14hours. See how tired school is making me -_-" Then after lunch I went back to sleep for 2hours again. ._.

Oh crap, it's so late already but the school beside my house is making hell lots of noise because of some camp they're having. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH :( (I live 24th storey btw, imagine those living low levels..)

Another :( thing.

My phone... My ass phone. Has gone into its crazy mode. I can't receive smses until I re-on it everytime. Wthells?! It started ytd afternoon, then after I re-on it 10messages came in at one go. Today too. Rahhhhh :( So to you out there, sorry if I take super long to reply msges!!

Despite all these...

Charmaine is still gonna smile :)

But you know that we're in this together;

2009-04-03T20:05:00.005+08:00

I'm seriously addicted to Stuck With Each Other ! :)
Super super nice :D

I went school for one hour of maths today -.-"
Ponned H1 bio :X Was actually going to go lab already then Brandon called and so... yeah. First time okay so still not bad lah, LOL :X
Then rest of day went to watch guys match, so skipped literature(actually can go half an hour one but I didn't do homework so didn't go xD) PE and Chinese!
Took MrWong's car back to school with 3 other guys. I feel abit bad eh, his car can take 4 passengers, then actually already got 4 guys but one of them let me take the car instead. :/ But it's at Geylang lah!! I don't even know how to go back school from there. Before that I had left my bag in the library basement. So went back at around 3plus meet Christine and Genevieve do work :D Lalalas and they two started drifting on to talking about their primary schoolmates :( LOL. Met ADELINE KOH after that hahaha she came to my school for tennis match ;D Then home with slowpokeeeeee! Took bus to Khatib again, laziness :D

I'm so ~~proud~~ of myself because I had wanted to pon school totally today but in the end, I didn't. WAHAHAHA^^

Alright, I'm going to take my power nap of TWO hours right now nanana ~ ;D

No one plans to fail but they fail to plan

2009-04-02T18:53:00.006+08:00

April Fools

Trng ended at 8pm. Being lazy, she agreed to take bus with Vicky to Khatib station. (even though it was only 3 stops away, the distance can say, quite far. eh no, to her it's quite far, but actually not tt far, she walked before xD) But like she said, she was lazy tired plus bag was super heavy with the clothes and books :( After alighting, as they were crossing the road, she realised she was only holding her shoebag but had left her wallet in the bus! -.-" So she panicked immediately, just like any other normal person who'd do the same in that situation. Usually she'd look behind at her seat before she leaves the bus, but she doesn't know why she didn't do so then. So she ran across the middle of a busy road to take down the bus no. Then went MRT station, got the Yishun Int number and called to report. There was nothing she could do after that, except to wait for the call. So she went to Royston's block and borrowed $$ from him, intending to go home already. Moments after she said byebye to Royston, the call came and thank goodness, the wallet was there! Hahaha so dumb right. So Vicky accompanied her back to Yishun to claim the wallet back. -_-" In the end, they wasted like 1hour! :X

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And that her was Charmaine! LOL. Yes I know it was April Fools afterall. Vicky was laughing ALL THE WAY okay!! I feel so dumb too ._. I kept playing pranks on people, and at the end of the day, I'm the foooool. :D Karma!! LMAO. Happy I got back my wallet, sad I wasted so much of my time and Vicky's. Thanks lots lots lots lots ! xP At least I know I will be remembered for my dumbness, on april FOOLS somemore. People will think it's a joke man, really. When I called to report, the person was like "you left your wallet in the bus." yeah. "you LEFT your wallet in the bus.." yah. "you LEFT you wallet in the bus" I don't know if he was trying to be sarcastic or if he thinks I'm playing a prank on him LOL.

So well, thanks Vicky and Royston anyway. :)

Today's Thursday, the supposedly most dreaded day of the week. (bec of only 1 hour lunch break at 1.10pm for the WHOLE day which ends at 4.40pm and super hardcore maths total: 3hours) Can imagine me starving because I don't usually take breakfast? Lol. But time passed rather fast, even for the 1 and a half hours of GP! Mainly cus we talked crap xP Then afternoon maths lecture Genevieve wrote German words and passed to me! -.-" Like wow, I know how to read eh.. Tsk. And we had a competition to see who can keep our strepsil in our mouth the longest, I WON! :D Wah her NICE idea wasted my sweet lah!! LOL can't enjoy :( But nvm, I get to eat her self-cooked pasta next time ! :D I totally didn't pay attention during Maths lah, just copy blindly and praying hard he won't call on me. Busy talking throughout xD

I've a dinner date next Thursday with *winkwinks. Wahahahaha xD

Mac for icecream after schooool with Genevieve! Hehs, we two talked a lot today eh! :D

I'm hungry NOWWWWWW. Where's my dinner?? :(

i won't give in to temptation.

you FOOOOOOOOOOL.

2009-04-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

Look at the time now,

HAPPY APRIL FOOL, you stupid fool! ;D
dumdumdeedumdumdeedumdum

I swear I'm gonna pon school one day(or many more days actually) when I've saved tons of $$ to buy MCs. HAHAHA. ^^

I'm in deep shit now. I lost my lit lecture notes since I-don't-know-when-but-I-realised-it's-missing-during-lecture-yesterday. So I've searched high and low low and high for it at home but obviously, it's good at playing hide and seek. Or actually, it's good at hiding I'm bad at seeking. Or maybe it's not even in my house in the first place ._. And there's actually a poetry homework to be done by tomorrow(today). Given since last week. Crap, what excuse do I give?!? -_-"

????Vîn©È Love ❤ The unpredictable future. says:
*1st joke of the day
*omg a joke talk to me

Whatthehell! Lol.

Andand why am I still awake?!? There's like Econs Case Study test first thing in the morning tomorrow(TODAY!), which I don't have a good feeling about. I prefer essays!! ._. Which is actually good that I take H2 econs because more % on essays :)

Blood donation on April Fool Day.
HAHAHAHA, what a joke man xP

Goodnight people.
I should go to bed right now before I die badly in school tomorrow ._.

Marathon

2009-03-31T18:22:00.005+08:00

Going to school every morning has become like a "marathon" like what Ron described his experience of last year to me a few months back. Yesterday was funny. We were super late and running, and when we reach the traffic, the green man just refused to appear. And it was exactly 7.40am already, the gates were closing... Even though the councillors kept saying "No jaywalking no jaywalking" I did... What are the chances of me getting knocked down(when there's no car already) and being late for school? Haha, the latter stands a higher chance. And there was this time last week when we had to take a cab from KHATIB to school, costing only $3, taking less than 5min, wahahaha. 2nd time already luh. I'm reaching school sweating like crazy everyday, tsk.

Life's sooo -whatever- . You can fill it in yourself.

I don't know if I was dumb enough to go and tell the pe teacher my name today. Now I can't pon PE lessons anymore because my name's in the new class' list already :O Ran round the tracks today, felt quite good actually. For the few rare times in my life, LOL. Then we sorted into our houses, and talked about the track and field hits and stuff, like who wanna volunteer to be in the committee or take part in the different events. After dismissing, I was walking away already then the teacher was like You can run right? and I was like NONO. LOL ^^ I don't wanna take part in anything man, so sian. I'm still gonna try to maintain my gold for napfa but I think it'll be very difficult, because of the stupid standing broad jump. Ass. :( Btw, I read the newspaper and it said that caffeine actually helps to make people run longer distances, or run faster. Coolness, I didn't know that, I shall try it soooon before basketball trng or pe next time. :D

LALALAS. Basically for the rest of the day was slacky luh. Only had literature lecture and econs tutorial. Started introduction of Disgrace for lit. Can't wait to get my hands on the book and start reading it! xP Had 3 and a half hours break today, I slept before CT time in the library until my leg turned NUMB -_-" And the student handbook test was STUPID!!(only my class had the test because my SUPER STRICT form teacher wants it) zzz. She keeps catching my skirt lah!!! Walauxzxzxz. Zzz. Then had gastric once again, CRAP lah :( I don't know why this year I keep getting gastric!! My stomach hasn't adapt to the JC system whereby breaks are irregular. (And talking about breaks, ytd during bio instead of paying attention, I was comparing my new class' timetable with my old class' one and realised the old one has a total of 9 and a half hours break while the current class has 10 hours break in one week) I know breaks are a total waste of time, because I won't maximise my time fully to study. But I really love love love and crave for loooong breaks, wahahaha. That's what happens when lectures and tutorials drive one mad. :O

I should start on my PI soon. Probably this weekend though. I have not/dont know how to do my literature homework :O AHHHHHH.

andandand before I end off,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD MAN! :)

You're Just Conquerors!!

2009-03-29T12:49:00.006+08:00

Charmaine's somewhere at the front wahahaha !!

(though I doubt you'll be able to identify cus I'm not exactly looking at the camera)

THE WORLD'S SUCH A SCARY PLACE.

sometimes I wonder what's the point of living.

Camp Excel 2009

2009-03-28T19:05:00.001+08:00

Charmaine is back! Yesterday went home to bathe and started packing my camp stuff. Took only half and hour to pack!! Lols. Then went back to school at 6pm super early because Chia asked me go early play basketball. But end up, I was the only one who reached so early. -.- So anyway went Mac took away HAPPY MEAL! :D As I was walking back to school, this guy(idk if it's the teacher) was like pointing at my Happy Meal and said, "Unhealthy food!" or something like that. Then I was stunned, and Vanessa asked if I know him and I was like no. -.-" So we settled in LT3 at 830 and had this talk by a sports psychologist. And started watching a movie "Return of the Titans" or something, I don't know the title, Vanessa only told me today lol. The movie lasted 1hour and I was half-awake. THEN, they showed the 2nd part of the movie, like wth another 1hour!! -.-" Movie was not bad actually, I think. BUT I fell asleep A LOT of times uncontrollably, actually almost for all the 2nd part of the movie, because I was super tired. Movie ended after midnight, and after getting some hot milo, I went to sleep IMMEDIATELY. While the rest of the girls were like gossiping, because I couldn't take it anymore xP And I think they talked for quite long eh... But I was already in my lalaland :D (Oh yeah, our phones were all confiscated, tsk.)

Had a good night sleep with NO DISTURBANCE :D Slept like a pig heheheh. This happens when I'm really tired, noises around me won't wake me up. ^^ Trained for 2 hours and had breakfast! More talks yet again. I'm starting to get sick of these kind of talks okay... It's all the same, all point down to one thing: Perseverance. Tsk, I already have enough of all these talks for camps!! Especially last year's motivational camp by Adam Khoo which lasted 3 days, lol. These kind of motivation can only last me for a few weeks, or the most a few months. :X I think we had like 3 to 4 different speakers from different places in this excel camp lah -.-" Hahaha, and we don't even have to pay a single cent!! Even the meals are free. Hahahaha.

Played some teambonding kinda games in the hall in the afternoon. Hais, reminds me of Sec2's camp, abit. Lol. Then an ending talk plus video to end the camp off :) Got back my phone, and smses started coming in like nobody's business when I on-ed it. Like 20 messages okay!! -.-" Jammed like crazy. In just 1 night eh, so many smses -.-" And then I think it's actually quite nice to be w/o your phone during this camp, hahahaha. Ppl can't contact you and it feels nice to be free from phone calls and smses for once. Maybe I shall try doing that tomorrow! ;)

And I'm happy because I got an A for Chinese!! :D Grades like this make me wanna strive harder to maintain or get even better results. At least there's some motivation and hope. I'm going to pay attention and do all my Chinese homework from now onwards already, take the subject seriously. I know I've been neglecting and giving the heck-care attitude to Chinese ever since school started... Lol. To speak the truth, I had actually sort of given up the subject after my 1st attempt during Os because it had been a great setback. I really wanna get over and done with the first attempt for A lvl now. :D

There's a lot of homework to be completed, lessons to catch up on, tests to study for. In just one night(tonight) and one day tomorrow. Hais :( I'm so tired now, I think I'll sleep right after dinner before waking up to do my homework... Life's sad.

Jiayou Charmaine!!

"Nobody plans to fail but they fail to plan"

Lightning

2009-03-26T22:06:00.003+08:00

One hour nap, one hour reading newspaper, one hour talking nonsense online, now I'm left with 3 hours to 1am to study. :/ Happy because tomorrow school starts one hour later. Sad because I have camp excel. Hahaha. Another reason to be happy for, there's lots of lightning now, it's gonna rain tonight and I shall sleep like a pig and not wake up for school in time and then I'll pon it and continue sleeping through the day. Like real. Hahaha. Super proud of myself because I didn't pon school at all this week, even though every morning when I wake up, the urge was SUPER STRONG. ^^ LOL.

Raaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Fluid mosaic model

2009-03-26T17:47:00.004+08:00

Say Bye to my B for Bio and hello to my U :(

I don't know why all bio tests are always so chim. Even in Sec3 and 4. My only ever distinction for bio was during Os! -.-" More fails than passes in my upper sec actually. Hahahaha. Same goes for Chemistry too! Lol, I was never and will never be a Science kind of student. :/

Today, not bad. Even though there's only 1hour break at 1.10pm(SO LATE!) and afterwards the Econs lecture was ... funny. Kiasu Singaporeans ;D Really funny to see everyone chionging luhs, only people under her will know the extent of exaggeration.

I always find there's too many things to do on weekdays, but when weekends come, there's like nothing much to do. ._. Hahaha weird. But! There's CAMP EXCEL tomorrow like @%#$%^. I only knew it today, and this means I'll be staying over in school tomorrow night :( Andand, my Saturday would be GONE. Left Sunday to do homework, organise my ws, catch up on GP and Chinese and Literature(a lot of confusion in these subjects due to change in class zzz) and self-revision. Raaaaaaahhhhh.

Dismissed early today because some had maths retest. First day of the week I'm reaching home before the sky darkens, tsk. Oh yeah, took cab from KHATIB to school = $3 like LOL. ;) 2nd time taking from Khatib already, wahahahaha.

I was planning to come home early to chiong my journal entries which by right, is 6 or 7 articles by tomorrow. (one extra entry per day if don't hand in on time) But today, the GP teacher told me I can start from next week onwards :D So hurray!!^^ I don't have to do all the stupid 6/7 articles le. Hehs. &there's expository essay which the class has done, and it's optional for me to try. I think I shall try it because I've never written one before, lol.

And I just got my NYAA gold today. Now I'm starting to regret not taking silver instead... SIAN.

Such a fool

2009-03-24T21:48:00.004+08:00

OMFG I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW DUMB I WAS :(
such an ass.
I wonder how I managed to pull through for the 1year1month and don't know how many days w/o dying from .

"Charmaine has been attentive during lessons. Hope she would do well in her next chosen H1 subject." CSE comment for Term1 by my teacher, LOL.

Blood donation talk today. It's like Bio lesson lah. The starting was totally bio! Lol. I wanna donate but am scared. Tsk. :O It will be in school on APRIL 1st. Happy April Fool!! What a joke, lol.

And after the blood donation talk I was walking to the MRT station when mosquitoes started attacking my legs! >:( I didn't say I want to donate my blood to them!! LOL.

And I still owe truckloads of journal entries. Shitzxz. The longer I delay, the more I have to do. 1 more per day if I don't hand in -.-"

AND SHIT, I STILL CANT GET OVER IT. :( SO DUMB !!

Raaaah, don't ask anything!!

Up down in out left right

2009-03-23T19:15:00.005+08:00

PW task out today, :O

During the 2hours break, 1st hour = studying at library 2nd hour = eating with my used to be classmates in SG04 :)

Literature lecture, sat with Hiong. Hahaha and I was like stoning most of the time. :/ Online pop-ups which helps to prevent online pop-ups. Or sth like that, irony.

Then half an hour break again. Yes, again. This time studied with Theodore because I found him in the library. Actually I did not much studying, he kept asking me maths REFLECTION questions which I don't know how to do and don't plan to do. :/ Renzhi came shortly and joined us. Then my SG04 friends again. :)

Left them for Maths after half an hour.

Triple Chinese, can cry. So boring.
"Shi shui pai ni lai wo ban de?"
"Er.. Shi wo zi ji yao lai zhe ban de."
"! Ni bu ke yi zi ji xuan ban!"
LOLOL. conversation between me and my chinese teacher. :O
I chose that class cus Royston's in there and he's the only one I know who got B3 too. And I chose my own Econs class too :D Christine and Royston's there. :D Hahahahaha cool to be able to choose my own class xP

GP/PW last period. We got sorted into our groups and guess who's in my group :O That guy from 4e3 Chua JiaJun -.-" And also Genevieve, my new friend who knows Christine and Casey Choo Ee Kiang(That's how she calls him, she remembered his full name even though they were classmates in PRIMARY1.) Loooool sian I don't like PW D:

After school finally ended at 5.10pm, SQ pei me eat in canteen and then we went home alreadyy. No CCA :D

They took away my CSE grade!! :( No more As now. Only 1 C for the freaking maths, bio and econs test yet to take, chinese results yet to know. Rawr. Initially I planned to like get A B C D E for 5 different subjects. How cool is that lah? LOL. Now I don't know where to pin my hopes on for A anymore...

H2 maths econs ~~bio~~ literature H1 ~~CSE~~ bio :)

Dinner time, then chiong hw then sleep !!
So SAD today's bio test postponed!! Wasted my freaking weekend. And means I still have got to study for Bio AND Econs. Sucks much.

Imperfection.

2009-03-22T18:43:00.004+08:00

Today's the last day of the so-called holidays. I'm still left with 2 Econs ws homework(I'm not exactly sure what to do for them actually...), Econs revision for the test next week, 2 newspaper article for my GP journal, summary part for GP comprehension, and somehow I'm still not secure about the Bio test tomorrow, even though I spent the weekend mostly on Bio. I still don't feel like I've gained much new bio knowledge. Majority seems like recalling of Sec4's work. :O Maybe I'm wrong but I don't know, I just don't feel the slightest bit smarter in bio. Lol.

I just popped
4 pineapple tarts
3 ferrero rochers
2 long bars of kitkat
1 bowl of instant noodles
into my mouth into my tummy into my digestive system into my toiletbowl(eventually).

Tomorrow marks the start of a brand new busy term. NO MORE CALIBRATION! (Just when I got the hang of it :O But still happy nevertheless :D Btw, it's got something to do with the microscope.) NO MORE LONG DREARY HOURS OF BIO PRACTICALS! :D That's a real reason to be happy for, hahahaha. xD But, tomorrow marks the start of PW as well. :( The real thing. Crappp :( I wonder what stupid question they will give, I wonder who my pw mates will be. :O I don't even know the class well, I just joined them last week, so I only know the class for 2 days!!

I really have to forgo my sleep tonight already :(:(:(
I always say I won't sleep so early, but end up in lalaland before the clock strikes 12am. :O I really should start putting my studies before my sleep. Raaah. In case you have not realise, I have always put sleep before studies. :X

Memories, supposed to fade?
but why isn't it fading...

'Cause when I'm with him I'm thinking of you ~

OMG I REALISED I MISSED THE BIRTHDAY DATE :(

Memories, supposed to fade?

2009-03-22T12:28:00.010+08:00

Hellooooo.

Time to chiong homework, and study for Bio and Econs test seriously now. :O

Byebye.

ilovebiology.

2009-03-21T22:37:00.005+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO. :)

Hahaha, today was a very bio day. Though not very accomplished, because there was a family gathering going on as well too... I shall not sleep tonight, then. *grins*

Balloon ^^ and it got smallerand smaller ...soon it'll be all gone :(

nothing gold can stay ~

just like HAPPINESS.

My orange heart-shaped balloon from WWW ytd which apparently don't look like a heart anymore.

We camwhored a lot yesterday, too many photos to upload alr , shall upload it the next time I blog :D

Charmaine starts to chant:

ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.
ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.
ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.
ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.
ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.
ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.
ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.ilovebiology.

hahahas, keep chanting it and i'll love bio! :D

When my time comes forget all the wrong I've done

2009-03-21T16:25:00.009+08:00

My CSE test got an A. (which doesn't matter anymore now)
My Maths test got a C.
My Chinese test?!?
Lol, like almost everyone know their Chinese results already, but mine not out yet!
And there's Bio and Econs tests next week :(
I wonder how I'll fare.
Later my grades become A B C D E.
Wahahahaha.
Maths test was really a miracle, I calculated during the test I'll score like 20plus marks and get a U, but somehow I got extra 20plus marks overall. Can't believe... 20 method marks?!? :O

Stupiddummy.
Next Maths test in like 2 weeks' time I think.
Whatthehell :(

And crap, I think I'm really dying.
Diarrhea everyday, even though I ate pills already. :O
Why must make me suffer by mugging before I die?!?

And don't you think the weather today is super nice to sleep in?
Tempting!

A Midsummer Night's Dream :-/
"If e'er I loved her, all that love is gone. My
heart to her but as guest- wise sojourned, And now to Helen is it home
returned, There to remain."

FICKLENESS.

Believe in yourself

2009-03-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

Went WWW today!
HAHAHAHAHA.

HAPPY HAPPY! :)
My CSE got A , like LOL. I just dropped that subject... ><

The quiet scares me

2009-03-19T19:20:00.004+08:00

CRAP.
I'm having diarrhea for the entire day, plus flu.
My stomach's really feeling funny and weird. :(
My nose won't stop running.

Days like these make me feel like giving up.
Motivation gone missing.
Today was totally WASTED.

Someone find it back for me please!

>:(

Walking down memory lane...

2009-03-19T18:11:00.004+08:00

If you lose faith in you,

2009-03-19T14:24:00.007+08:00

Sunsets are prettyyy.
Sunrise are difficult to catch.
But on the way to school every morning, I get to see the beautiful sunrise at Khatib! :) Really pretty...

I don't know why I'm here now when I'm supposed to be studying... :( Just can't help but to take a break from PED, Ei, Cross Ed and all the chimchim biological terms. Everyday seems to be studying and preparing for Os now lol. Just that it seems worse. During Os, it takes only 3 months of hardcore studying, but now, I'll be doing it for around one and a half years. 18 months! That's like 6 times worse than preparing for Os... Haha.

I don't know how come my pet leveled up so fast when I haven been playing ever since school started like 1/2 months ago. :O I remember it was only lvl 17 when I last left it. Hehs. Thankyouuuu to whoever has been helping me play! Hahaha. I've a feeling it's OYJ or maybe WeiQi? :)

I've been getting diarrhea every now and then. :( Am I dying? :O

I don't have lunch today. Hungryyyyyyyyyy ! :(

I know I've been blogging a lot recently... But then it's the holidays, what'd you expect? Hahas, life's so monotonous and almost everyday's the same routine. Coming online to waste time is an escape from the crazy studying that I'm supposed to be doing.

I don't want Term2 to start!! Cus the actual PW will begin... Sucks. :( Happy thing is I no longer have to dread Tuesdays because of the long dreary hours of bio spa! HAHA. Tuesday used to be the day I hate the most because of bio practical. Now it's the other way round. Tuesday is my favourite day now because I only have PE, Lit lecture and Econs tutorial. Hehs ^^ With a total of 3 &a half hours break on that day. I love breaks a lot a lot now, wahahahas. xD Everything's still going okay with my new SG, the only thing I don't like is Chinese lesson! Last time I used to talk, eat, lame around with JiaHui and Theodore. But now, I'm all alone in a new class... So boring can, just sit there and stone. T_T

Happy Birthday DianXiang & Claire!^^

this crush ain't going away ~

I'll give you strength to pull through :)

Demand and Supply

2009-03-18T22:12:00.004+08:00

Coming down Coming down Coming down

Spinning round Spinning round Spinning round

I've been drawing the demand and supply curve for the entire afternoon/evening. Looool ._.

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?

Live.Laugh.Love♡

2009-03-18T14:45:00.003+08:00

So much for wanting to lose weight ._. Lol. 12am to 12pm, pigpigpig! :O The weather's so freaking hot it's irritating. :( I wasted my morning again, sleeping. I promise I won't wake up so late ever again for the holidays, before 11am is a must to wake up. And that stupid moomoo icecream is a cheater bugger. It says on the box free tattoos but there isn't any when I opened it! Lol... Not that I'm interested in it lah... But still, cheatercheatercheater!

Okay byebye. Time for Econs! :O

>:(

2009-03-17T21:23:00.017+08:00

There can be only one reason why I hate taking naps ,

I feel more grouchy and tired and grumpy after waking up. :(

Eh wait, no.
The other reason is that it wastes a lot of my time, especially when there's school next day.

Still, naps are unavoidable on some days when my body and mind refuses to cooperate with me and stay awake.

And I hate 100 plus lemon lime. Yuckkkkkkks, tastes like some weird shit. I don't know why I didn't realise it long ago :(

I hate life right now (na na na), how much it sucks and how stressful it can get at times.

I hate you toooooo. :)

Yay, now I'm getting all hateful. -.-"

But never mind, I'll take things in a positive manner.
Positive mindset, and everything will be alright... Maybe that has been what's keeping me going . for how much longer, idk.

Afterall, the opposite of love is not hate but apathy.
So it's good that I'm still feeling hateful, rather than becoming numb to everything that's happening around me, to me.

Jy to the two of you who're in this with me together too!^^

The antisocial guy sucks. ;]

fickle pickles tickle

2009-03-17T19:07:00.005+08:00

I know I'm super fickle. Especially this year. Lol.

Firstly, the transfer from TPJC to YJC.
Next, the transfer from guitar to basketball.
Lastly, the changing of subject combination(SG04 to SG20).

And all these are happening within one to two months only.

Today was okay, I think I screwed up my Chinese test. Tsk. Yesterday was Maths, today was Chinese. What's next? -.-"

Bio and Econs test when the term starts. Have to do well!

H1 bio lesson today, we went through MCQ questions which I had already gone through with my H2 bio class. So I practically stoned and tried to pretend I'm awake and paying attention. Don't think I'm going for the extra lesson tomorrow, she'll probably be going through what she has gone through for my h2 lessons already and I always can't absorb a thing during lesson so must well stay home self-revision right! xP

Literature class was soso, lucky there was ChiaYing(basketball friend) with me!! :) Everyone had to read out their answers :O I was excused because today's my first lesson. xD The teacher is an angmoh, it's hard to catch what he's saying at times :O I realised I forgot a lot of literary devices already ><

Okay, it's time to take my evening nap now :)
Sleep is so precious to me now wahahaha.

Stupid, 5min = 5hours -.-"
Whatever. :(

Pop goes the bubble

2009-03-16T21:41:00.005+08:00

Vulnerability

Screw the maths test. :(
I'd be overjoyed if I can even pass it, haha.

And I'm happy I still went for training in the end.
Was so close to going home to sleep, lol.
But the feeling after every PE lesson & basketball training is super nice :D
I'm going to aim to lose 3kg. :)
I'm tiredddddd. Can't believe it's actually the holidays. I still have to go back to school on three days, two days following the normal school timetable, which means ending school at around 5pm. T_T I don't even feel the holiday mood, it seriously doesn't seem like the holidays at all...

I'll be starting my first literature lesson tomorrow! Wahahaha, I think they're currently doing the unseen now.

Goodnight.

Edited--

Omg I didn't know there's Chinese test TOMORROW! :( Everything seems so screwed up all of a sudden. My studies are like shit. I'm not even sure of what's going on for ALL my lessons anymore, lagging behind, just because I fell asleep/didn't pay attention for some lessons. Freaaaaaak :(

CVD 2009

2009-03-15T21:57:00.001+08:00

CT time on Tuesday!
Hahas, CT time is like always so random, taking photos time.. xP

CVD 14March2009

damn stupid, i tell you.

was supposed to reach school at 7.30am

&after going into the train station, i realised I forgot to bring my coupons out!! stupidity. &i already tapped my card okay! TT

so took another 10mins walking home.

it's fast walking okay, my legs were killing me.

in the end, i reached yishun at 7.50am LOL.

thanks Mardhiaaaah &ShaoQiiiii ^^

Especially Mardhiah who waited for 45min for me!! xD This picture is super funny, lols.

Look at Samuel carefully, his eyes.

And Sebastian?!? o.o I wondered if we wrapped at least 100 soft toys on Friday.^^Taken secretly!
Matthew playin the pianoThanks for coming!

Angeline Jaslyn ShinYing :)Haha! :DDunking machine :D

Preparing to get dunk...&DUNKED!Shikang!! HAHAAS^^

We sabo-ed Royston too :D JiaHan Jas Jasmine Weiqi :)dehydrated?

lols.

the vp actually recognised me and Christine!! O.O

he was holding the camera then I was wearin the advertising "shirt"

&he asked us to pose for a picture ._.

then afterwards he asked us if our poly friend(weiqi) coming or not.

LOL. cus that day we transferred in WeiQi came with us.^^balloooooooons !! :D:D:D My new classmate who just joined 119 today!Jason

He played Apologise and That's what you get. :)That's Royston's primary school classmate/schmate who knows Jason too.

Such a small world.Then went to NorthPoint for lunch with Christine, Jason, Royston.WeiQi and JiaHui joined later.

This is WeiQi's star that she made :DWent back to school and played basketball with Jason.

So happy! I got in a lot of 3 points shoot :D

Started raining nearing the end of the funfair.

Samuel and YouMing got bored and started poking at the ice! -.-Haagen Daaz ! :D

I think we made like $900 :D

YAYYYY!

Actually I did a lot of "charity" too :/

Everything's so overpriced.

I got my new SG.

Going to be super scary tomorrow again, new class, new faces.

Strangers...

Only person I knw is Royston.

But stillll...

I really hope everything goes well ._.

Hahas.

And there's maths test tomorrow.

DIE ALREADY.

Only today to start studying ?!?

And I woke nearing noon and took a nap.

I'm not confident at all...

I don't aim for an A.

B pleaseeee, at least!

I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run

2009-03-13T22:35:00.005+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :)

TGIF, not. There's CVD tomorrow! 7.30am reporting time :( Even earlier than normal school time... Actual thing starts from 9am to 5pm. One whole day gone :O So I'm only left with Sunday. To study for maths test which is on Monday!! :( And do all the homework. Monday's going to be scary, going to new class. I'm now taking h2 literature and h1 bio :D

Yesterday sucked, a lot. Right from the start of the day, when I rushed out of my house, to forgetting to bring things, to falling asleep in Econs and Maths lectures, to having gastric during the OCIP interview after Maths at 5pm. In the end, had to skip 4e3's dinner to go home. Slept from 8pm all the way till next morning, 6am. Scared me when I woke up at 3am plus, I forgot I slept at 8pm and was like, oh it's still early, not time for school yet. Then I went back to sleep and suddenly remembered I slept at 8pm and was supposed to wake up at 10pm...

I've been sleeping at 11pm everyday this week :D 11pm is now considered early already luh. Everyday reach home 9plus bathe, dinner, computer and then sleep already, haha. Cus I finish all my homework during the weekends, so weekdays no need rush yay.

Today was half day for everyone. Afternoon spent in the underground of the library doing up banner, advertisings, wrapping of soft toys as presents. At night went NorthPoint for dinner with parents and brother. And I got a flu TT Suddenly. -.-" I think it's because I was near two ppl who had flu today... Hais, now my nose is irritating the hell outta me. And I've got 3 advertisings to do... Not even one completed yet and it's 11pm now. Zzz. :(

Tomorrow come home at night still have to chiong PW. D:

Come support 119 tomorrow! :D

There's game, really big and yummy ice popsicles, and HAAGEN DAAZ icecream for just $3 for one cone and $5 for 2! :D How cheap is thaaaat, for haagen daaz! :D

Goodnight.

THE PILL ISN'T TAKING EFFECT D:

In the night I hear them talk, the coldest story ever told

2009-03-10T21:48:00.007+08:00

my lucky carebear! ♥

I'm faaaaaaaaaat.

Wahahhahas.

I gained 3kg. :O

The height-and-weight % from 80 now become 100.

80% is acceptable.

100% is perfectttt .

But I don't like :(

diet diet diet ~! :X

hahaha,

http://www.ultimatedisney.com/countdown4/index3.html

the top 10 countdown of disney's most evil villians. xD

I gotta go rehearse my part for presentation of PW tmr. :(

&then SLEEP before 11pm!

TIRED. :(

you,

asshole >:(

It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back

2009-03-08T18:26:00.011+08:00

LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE<3

from strangers to classmates to friends to studying together to talking about anything together to getting into trouble together(?)
and now, we aren't like what we used to be anymore.
but i'm glad you took the initiative to talk to me. :) i don't think i'll ever do that again.. :X &i don't want to lose this friendship. :)

CVD(funfair) 14March2009 9am to 5pm Coupons at $10 per person. Pleaseeee tell me if you're interested !! :D I've got like 9 tickets to sell ;D

Unproductive weekend, damn TT

Happy Birthday Sugan(eswaran)! :D
hahahas.
He said he missed me when I wished him last night LOLS. Must be missing the disgusting times in Sec1...(only Christine and JiaHan(?) knows..) xP

There's such a thing as Alpha-isomer and Beta-isomer, Alpha glucose and Beta glucose, like lol wth? Read it in the bio lecture notes... What does alpha and beta actually mean anyway? I only know it's related to Amaths. :O

I forgot there's CSE test tomorrow ._.

so little time, so many things to do :O

You're the reason why I'm thinking

How could you be so heartless?

2009-03-07T21:43:00.005+08:00

You were like my lover and my best friend

All wrapped into one with a ribbon on it

I don't know how to do my GP essay and started using liquid to draw on my file, bwahahahas. So far, I've completed my bio essay(hurray,not!) which I was supposed to finish by last Thursday already. Lols...

&I can spam nudges on msn already!! xP

1 year 2 days ago.

Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless

I won't tell you I love you

2009-03-07T12:23:00.006+08:00

Map of China.

Test on Monday, crap zzz.

Econs essay outline
GP essay
PW research
Maths Binomial Series
Bio essay questions(supposed to be already done by Thurs-.-)
Bio structured questions

I'm sorry :(

I know I'm a bad friend... I'm a bad juggler. I can't juggle between studies, CCA and friends all at one go.

I miss 4e3'08, AMFC, my computer time, my sleeping time.

119's nice too but our time together is really very little... But it's still nice to meet up together during our common breaks now and then to eat and study together :D

I lost my water bottle after only two days of using it, hahahaha how dumb can I get. :D I left it in the canteen during break on Wednesday and went for Maths, only to realise it's gone after lesson.

I don't want history to repeat again. I want to do well for my Chinese in the first attempt, although there are 3 attempts. Everyone in my Chinese class get B3 plus at least a merit for oral, I'm the only one with B3 plus a pass for oral, tsk. If only I had not screwed up for oral, I could have gotten an A... It could have made a difference in my total L1R5... Luckily for A lvl, all the 3 attempts include oral plus written. So if I screw up oral the first time, I still have two chances unlike Os... But still I wanna get over and done with Chinese by the 1st attempt!! :(

what's gone is gone.

So you walk around like you don't know me

2009-03-06T19:48:00.008+08:00

Helloooooooo.
Today's like the nicest day of the week ever. Fridays rock. Because...

The weekends are finally here again!!
There's a total of 2 and a half hours break in between lessons. (some people had like a straight 4 hours break between lessons wth!!)
School starts one hour late.

Wahahaha. :D

This morning was abit sucky though. I left home late, and had to like rush in order not to be late, reaching school just on time, to realise that I forgot to bring my thumbdrive for Fabian and Banu's thumbdrive as well. Tsk. Plus I was sweating like mad and realised I forgot to bring my water bottle to school even though I had it ready on the table...

Alright CVD... I'm in charge of advertisement for the sponge gameyy rofl. Plus the banner for our stall ! Kay, I really don't know when we can find the time to do that lah, everyday's so packed with studies and cca. Rawrrrr.

Lessons today were surprisingly not bad. As in I didn't feel like sleeping :D First time ever man. Maybe cuz I slept at like 11pm last night(it was raining, super nice and tempted to slp early xD) and woke up nearing 7am today, shiokkkk ;)

A level results out today... Hmm... And so last period which was Chinese was free because teacher wasn't there. Started eating my chips ;) Yummyyyy!! Then slowpoke and me went to the hall to kope The New Paper... wahahaha. Like karangguni man xD And yup talked to some other guys randomly in my chinese class, :O So got to know more people today.

Oh yeah, congrats Brenda on becoming an aunt from today onwards! xP HAHAHA, old ^^
And Theodore's close friend is Brenda's brother. LOLS, super small world can. Heehee. So Theodore knows Brenda indirectly and has been to their house before, hahaha.

I chionged my bio cell drawings plus labellings during the break in like 30min YAYYYY! ><

P-E-R-S-E-V-E-R-E-N-C-E!

2009-03-05T21:20:00.004+08:00

It was Syamimi's birthday today. We threw flour on her after school. Look at how much she aged xD

Today was crap. Proper lessons(excluding assembly and mass pe) only started at 1110am. And I was sooo soooooooo tired, felt damn moody and whateverish. Afternoon was the worst, 2hours maths. I was like copying the corrections halfway until I really dozed off and you should just look at my handwriting. Lmao.

I love the curry chicken mee. :D Plus today I koped ShaoQi's chips and it's reaaaally addictive, :D Heheh, then he gave me $10 go buy more with Pauline xP Thankyouuuuu. :)

I am so proud of myself today because I only spent $3.60!! :) Was trying so hard to resist those yummy food luh.

hiphiphooraaaay!

Alright, I shall go off and shoot myself now.

Tomorrow school starts one hour late, thank goodnesss.

though come to think of it now, does it really make a big difference?

no one understands ...

rubbishcrapnonsensebullshit

2009-03-04T22:04:00.008+08:00

CALIBRATION sucks.
I don't understand!! :(
crap bullshit nonsense rubbish

Really very stressed up and tired, damn :(

And I realised I'm practically running everyday except Tuesday and the weekends.
Zzzz. Pe plus basketball.

I'm only online because I have to do research for PW :(

I'm happy only because I had HAPPY MEAL today after school before training and got a pokeball !! :D It's coooooolly, with a mirror plus light and a weird pokemon which I can't identify. And I got my 4th handphone strap -.-" Plusss, I'm totally broke now. $4 left to survive for the next two days. And the worst thing is that my parents gave me $29 to pay for my CSE book but somehow, the $$ flew away. Crap, I don't even know where my money goes to!! :(

OKAY. IM TIRED.
and when im tired, im sad :(

I'm like dozing off during every lecture and sometimes, tutorial :( This is a very very bad sign... Finished a zillion mentoes today :O

SQ is crazy. He sends a zillion smses everyday until my inbox is totally flooded with his name -.-" Vanessa is a van. Hhahahahah, lame. I don't know why but I get so high crazy and damn random plus lame at random times. Like I went, where's your lorry to Vanessa. And sing lame songs etc. School's really driving me mad. :O And stop stupid rumours man -.-"

AND I WANT TOBLERONES !!

SCREWEDDDD. Gonna die badly tomorrow, real bad. I'll be like falling asleep the entire day in school! Moody. Shitzxzxzzxzxz. SIAN I HATE THIS. :(

I'm trying
trying to be optimistic
trying to persevere and push on
trying to finish my homework
trying to keep up with the pace
trying to stay awake

Okay, I give up.
I'm going to bed NOW. >:(

BINTAN

2009-03-02T15:16:00.002+08:00

BINTAN CAMP
26feb - 1march

positive and negative.

Reported to school before setting off for Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal

On the bus to the terminal ~Queuing up to check in.
Look at our big bags :O In the ferry!
Penguin 1.Mardhiah Bibiana Vanessa Bibiana!Charmaine!Mardhiah & CharmaineTheodore!Mdm Myl!Vanessa!My messy hair!Splash splash ~!Reached.We then started climbing the moutain after lunch.

Took like 1h30min to climb UP.

it's supeeeeer high i think, like climbclimbclimb,

still haven reach. :(

Everyone's sweating and happy after we've reached the top.119!Vince! LOL.And then we took another 1h30min plus to climb down.

Slipperry and steeep. :O

The far off place is where we have our dinner...On the 2nd day, we went to this village.
There were many dogs around, but luckily they were all well-behaved xD
So it wasn't that scary.Vanessa & Charmaine The Charcoal Factory.In we go into the charcoal factory to become charcoal xP The well in which the village people get their water from.Pauline!These children made me think of Chiangmai's exchange programme,

where we went up to a moutain to stay for some days.

doing cip and playing with the kids there.

it had been soooo fun,

i wonder how the kids are doing now...

Playing some marble game..Haha :)Can you see the chicks?Part of our CIP, painting the village's office.Another part of the class painted another house.Finally we're done ! :)Reminded me of Chiangmai's trip yet again,

where we painted the church. :)

So this whole trip to the village really brought back lots of memories of 2007.

lots of misses.

Sukanthy Bibiana BanuCheeeese.

Look at Jeredy.A moon and a star.

Bintan's one hour behind Spore but the sky darkens at 6pm.We did Mangrove Reforestation after visiting the village.

Which was quite fun actually ;D

Took a boat to somewhere farrr away where the mangroves were.

And went into the waters when we reached.

Even though the water's only up to my waist lvl,

we had to bent all the way to reach the ground to plant the mangroves.

So my entire body except the part above the neck was wet totally.

After that, we took the boat back and was supposed to do dragon boating.

But the tides were not high enough, so we had some team building games in the sea.

funfun ;D

ended the night with a stupid candlelight "solo" walk.

in groups of 5.

then watched a video...

kind of interesting and entertaining,

but i was totally exhausted and fell asleep.

was so fedup having to sit for so long in the sand with my butt and legs aching :(

finally time to sleeeep.

3rd day.

we had our dragon boating in the morning.

and most of our afternoon was spent waiting for our allocation for the time of our ferry to come back.

i was in wave1 :D

there were 3 waves, the first wave leaving at 7am on Sunday.

sadly, majority of the class girls were in the 3rd wave.

actually all except me and Pauline.

Both of us and all the class guys were in wave 1.

Then had our amazing race.

soooooo amazing -.-"

hahaha.

Our gala dinner on the last night :)"Altius Oy"

We had to form the words.

Altius is our group name.

There's a total of 3 groups in the camp.

The "Oy"'s supposed to be Oi.

But the instructor wanted to make it harder so it became Y.

&Im part of the Y :D

And since there were many guys left over, they underlined the word lol.

Piggyback !! :D 119 Matthew was dared to dance around the instructor, rofl.

We were playing Truth or Dare.Banu & Pauline We had campfire after our gala dinner.

Campfire was short, but still not bad.

I love campfires :D

Cus that's when everyone goes crazy and high,

screaming till our throats hurt. xD

There were fireworks too.

(Actually there were fireworks every night, LOL)

Yeah and we managed to see a super long pretty rainbow on one of the days even though it didnt rain.

Just as the campfire was about to come to an end,

it started raining.

Lols.

And the P still talked so much crap,

till the rain got heavier and heavier

&everyone rushed back to their tents to keep their stuff.

Lucky I had everything inside my tent already...

Then went to a sheltered place to assemble.

In the end, girls slept at the conference room of the resort which was airconditioned.xD

The guys had to sleep at the long house which was near the toilet, w/o aircon xP

Wahahahaha.

Slept like a pigg *oinks*

&the next morning when I woke, many girls were already gone, :x

Took the ferry back to Singapore with the 1st wave.

Before that took a bus with NO BACK DOOR to the terminal.

I was actually sitting beside the doorless back but Matthew changed places with me so it wasn't that scary.. lols.

But still, the roads were all uneven and bumpy.

and the wind was soooooo strong

and the driver was speeding.

like if you aren't careful your things or maybe yourself might just drop out of the bus.

hahas.

at the terminal while waiting to board the ferry,

i bought haagen daaz macademia nut and shared with Pauline :D

Then the ferry back was totally coooool.

So much better than the ferry we took to Bintan.

This one is like so nice, with food, drinks and icecream.

Some classes were super high and there were a lot of noise on the way back.

Sadly, 119 girls werent there and we were all separated.

Reached Singapore and then bused back to YJC

then headed to KFC for lunch with Christine and

home sweeeeeet home ~

I WANT COCONUT.

my throat's bad :(

alright, before I go off,

THANKS JESSICALIN FOR YOUR TRACKPANTS :D

Bintan, here I come!

2009-02-25T21:30:00.008+08:00

Rainbow!! :D

A very very very big thankyou to

ShinYing(for the sleeping bag!)

Sebastian(for the 2 orientation tees)

Vanessa(who'd be lending me the insect repellent)

Pauline(for the gloves plus sunblock)

Myself(for everything else xP)

You know, everything's missing after moving house...

Tsk.

MY MUSCLES ARE STILL ACHING LIKE MAD.

HOW TO CLIMB THE MOUNTAIN TOMORROW?

gosh, dieeee.

plusplus, my dislocated knee feels tight whenever I bend it :(

I walked home in the rain today.

Bigbigbig.

A rainbow appeared after the rain this evening :)

I've a feeling I'll fall ill after coming back on Sunday.

Walking in the rain +

Lack of sleep in camp

I'm wearing daily contacts for the camp! ;))

So niceee,

use and dispose. :D

Am excited.

&scared,

what if history repeats itself again?!?

Sweets I'm bringing to Bintan xD

Please don't let the mosquitoes come to me!!

(Theodore and me declare ourselves as 119's photographers from tomorrow onwards :D)

*btw, im going for the cambodia trip. not confirmed, but yeah trying for it. plus applying for nyaa gold ! :D

TADAAAAA ~~ :D

Back on Sunday !

Strength is the source of happiness

2009-02-24T18:41:00.007+08:00

Teddy's teddy.

Yesterday had my first basketball training
Someone banged into me, onto my knee lah D:
My dislocated knee hurts now and then :(
I'm afraid something will happen during the camp TT
Left early to go for dinner for SF's bday
Reached home after 10pm TT
Did very little homework and went to sleep before 12
My bag was freaking heavy
One set of full uniform, shoebag, two orientation tees(borrowed from Sebastian)
I was 99% dead today in school
Muscles aching!!! (How am I gonna climb mountain on Thurs??)
Brain dead during first period of maths
Dozed off abit during bio practical(played with microscope)
Break had curry mee! :) Instantly awake, when there's food :D
I then realised I forgot to bring my Chinese textbook... and panicked!
Because my Chinese teacher is like... -.-
So called Christine, Royston and Vanessa, no one answered :(
1h30min of Chinese!! -.-" My Chinese standard has really dropped A LOT :O
Bio lecture, which is really... I dozed off many times...
Lucky my mentoes came to save my day!
I can't pay attention during Bio everytime, idk why.
Feel like just recording down his voice and go home replay it myself hahaha.
Beatrice said whenever I get insomnia I can just play his voice to sleep xP
Break again, had the same curry mee again LOL.
Econs tutorial, was so-so. Freezing cold due to the rain!
CT timeeeeee! :D
Got high and crapped and camwhored and stuff.
I'm gonna apply for NYAA silver!
Camp briefing next, so instead of going home at 410 it became 520 :(
We're all exempted from CCA tomorrow! :)
Was going home with JiaHui and Christine and Mardhiah...
Then JH and Christine walked so fast... zzz
So took different trains in the end -.-
I have not pack my stuff for camp which is in two days' time...

I was super bored during Chinese and started drawing...

&Theodore saw me drawing and asked me to help him too :)

Mardhiah and me during CT time.

See my teeth TT

I was talking when it was taken! :( Class 119!They said I'm v white. :OClement's handsling(?)Handicapped girl xPTheodore!Clement!

I'm not a mugger, serious :)

2009-02-22T22:31:00.004+08:00

Hello! Well, yeah spent 10 freaking hours in the library today freezing! Hahas. With Vanessa, Fabian, ShaoQi and MingLiang(from their SG, I got to know him through the rest) Talked a lot actually, it's such a small world lol. Fabian's good friend in secondary school was a guy from my CG in TPJC. MingLiang knows XingJie! And some others as well. And Vanessa kept leaving us to go find her friend. While ShaoQi kept solving maths questions and being lame(I suspect he has an imaginary friend :O) They were all so nice to accompany me till Christine came in the late afternoon. They left when she came, and both of us studied till like 9pm when the library closed and went Popular and then home sweeeeeet home! Oh yeah, my parents suddenly turned up in the library in the evening. -.- Lols.

Okay, I have to report to my ctg venue at 715am tomorrow -.- Have a feeling I'll be late, usually I board the train from AMK at 717am lah -.- Tsktskkkkkk. :/ And it's so crappy luh, last period is PE from 410 to 510 and right after PE is basketball training till 730pm. Wow?!? I have not run for more than a year!! And a total of 3 hours break tomorrow! :)

"Strength is the source of happiness. we mutn't shy away from life's challenges. We mustn't be defeated. Refusing to be defeated equals victory. A person who perseveres to the end is a winner." - SGI preseident Daisaku Ikeda

(My OGL told me this lol)

Life is a road I wanna keep going

2009-02-21T17:03:00.006+08:00

I'm still stuck in maths.
Stupid freaking irritating maths.
Who in the world has so much free time to come up with so many complicated formulaes and stuff?
Yesterday during my 2hours break, I went to the library to study with Fabian, ShaoQi and another guy from their SG. Fabian and I kept bombarding ShaoQi with maths questions hahas. Found a maths pro finally! Thing is he keeps skipping steps in his workings, lol. So I skipped lunch, and when lessons ended at 5.10pm, I was really really hungryyyyy :O Went Northpoint and had LJS with Mardhiah! Then went to popular to get the cse files and home, because she has a really really early curfew whereby she has to go home immediately after school actually :(

I'm supposed to be meeting my Econs project peepos online. I wanted to sms everyone the time to meet, when I realised I don't have JunPing and JunHao's numbers in my phone?! And I thought I saved them in, I remember it clearly because we were all taking out our phones in class when we formed our groups to get each others' numbers down and Mr Chong even told us to keep our phones, lol. I just hope Pauline will inform them(hopefully she has the two guys' numbers!)

No life mannnn. I can't wait to go Bintan and just forget about maths econs bio, even if it's just temporary.

Basketball training begins on Monday!!
After so long of not running, more than a year, I really hope everything goes well.

Sorry, really sorry. :(
But I'm really very fed up with my maths >:(

Okay, I feel so stupid for not typing out my econs draft in the first place. Now I've to type them all in :(

I still refuse to give up, I will never ever give up.

Lost and insecure, you found me

2009-02-20T19:45:00.014+08:00

Today marks the 1st anniversary of my dislocated knee. LOL.

I've been totally exhausted and drained mentally and physically which explains the deadness here. (due to no time coming online)
Been busy catching up with lectures and tutorials
Met up with WeiQi and Jasmine on Monday
Had a super mini 4e3 dinner on Tuesday
Attended my cca(Guitar Ensemble) for the 1st time on Wednesday
Transferred to basketball on Thursday/Friday(because I find guitar abit boring, and I'm like totally not those music kind of person, can't even play the recorder properly!!)
I currently have two classes, CTG 119 and SG04
CTG 119 is my very first class in YJC, after I was randomly sorted into that class after transferring from TPJC(we all have different subject combinations in 119)
SG04 is my next class, my study group, whereby most of us have the same h2 combinations, but differ in our h1 subjects
This means that my CTG don't meet everyday, except during assembly, how weird :O
With a CTG, a SG, and basketball, this means we get to expand our social circle, rofl
My Chinese class is combined with a lot of other SGs, and coincidentally, slowpoke and me were in the same class! :D
I love doodling and drawing when lessons get boring (like how I drew on my book and Theodore's book during Chinese! We are from same CTG but different SG and we've got chinese, cse, maths together. I knw he loves my colour pens !! HAHA)
MENTOES(preferably something hot, like mint) keeps me awake during lectures and tutorials.
I love long breaks in between lessons but hate the crowd at lunch hour :O
Time passes rather fast during lectures, but super slow during tutorials!!
In a week's time, I'm already in Bintan, climbing trees and mountains. Right...
I love taking the train to school and back home, because most of the time I get empty trains!(Yes, even going home in the evening, trains comes in totally empty!)
I get to see beautiful sunrise passing YioChuKang to Khatib at 7.20am everyday!
I've been rushing in between lessons to get to my classes, and until now I'm still confused as to where is where, plussss sometimes I have to eat super super super fast because there's no time ): (Ppl who knows me well knws that I walk slow and eat slow!! :X)

MONDAY.

TUESDAY.

we had fish&co. for dinner! xP

Wednesday.THURSDAY.FRIDAY.

Only time will tell

2009-02-14T20:50:00.006+08:00

The opportunity cost of going jc is one's social life.

Heehee. :)
Think I've been reading too much of Econs, :/
(only econs ppl will understand the above^^)

Choices.
So difficult to choose.

trying to suppress a feeling this strong.

Hearts all over the world tonight

2009-02-14T16:26:00.001+08:00

happy valentine's day ! <3

The opposite of love is not hate, but apathy.

What hurts the most was being so close

2009-02-13T20:24:00.004+08:00

The graphic calculator is soooooo complicated :O
How to use?!? How to remember how to use w/o refering to any help?!?

Okaayyyeee, I suddenly have this thought of going back to the cc to study during the weekends.
Like super sudden, it just came to mind today. No distractions thereee, easier to study? ._. But I really dont know eh... :( If I renew the card, I'll only be going on weekends probably? Plus if I'm too lazy, I won't even bother to go out sometimes.. :/

I feel like forming a study group.

We're having a 4days adventure camp at the end of Feb! At Bintan, lol. My first time going out of Singapore for a camp! Don't know if I should look forward to it or not...

Probably going there to let mosquitoes feed on me ._.

And yes, I wasted $$ again today, HAHAHA. :( Everytime I see coloured pens, I'm super TEMPTED to buy all colours!! Raaah. &I realised, I dine at a restaurant at least once every week, tsk. Shall stoppppp. Gotta save $$ for Genting in March!

&&CAMBODIAAAA!

Friday the thirteenthhhh

2009-02-13T18:06:00.005+08:00

This morning:
Mum: Why you wake up so early?
Me: Go school lah. Where got early?
Mum: Today is Saturday leh...
Me: Today is Friday lah! -.-
LOLS. Funnyyy.
So anyway, today school was like zzz, go there sleep and talk only, hahas. We were in the hall from 8am to 12pm !! The cold was killing me, brrrr. Plus butt ached, legs very suan. I want to go Cambodia!! :D Yayyyee, hope I can!

Went to our CT venues after that and got scolded for talking in the hall -_- Lols so crap. Andddd yes, we divided up our CVD work. I'm in charge of the balloooooooons :D Dismissed at 12.45pm and went to buy the $150 calculator. It looks like a dictionary ! Haha. Funny calculator. Looks so complicated and chimmmm :O

Northpoint next! LJS :D Lunched and JH left. Went with Christine to the library at the new mall beside Northpoint. Or issit considered part of Northpoint now?!? :/ V difficult to concentrate, so tired and moodless. :( Stayed for less than 2hours, then gave up. Went to buy earrings! Because my round round one is apparently a little TOO BIG to be worn in school :( &if I don't wear, my earholes will close after like a week or so :( Off to Popular next, woah I didn't know Northpoint itself changed so muchhy! Like the Popular is all the way at the other end side now. And many new different shops around already. Makes me wonder how long I've not been to Northpoint already :/ Bought another handphone strap at MiniToons :O Then feeling thirsty, and since we had time to spare(Christine had to go back school for CO at 5.30pm), we went Mac. Left after drinking my greeeentea, and waited for 812 with Christine and mrt-ed home!

Photos taken today! :D

I received toblerone, rose, ferrero rochers! :)

Thankkkkkks.

Tonight will be the night,

2009-02-12T15:05:00.007+08:00

Missing!

I ended lectures at 1.35pm today! :D Many others still had another hour of lecture, so I went home alone first. Lazy + Hot + Tired + Heavy bag = taking bus out instead of walking. This morning alarm rang, but I continued sleeping for another 20min! :O Kay, and everyday is like reaching school on time, never early lols. That's just me xP CT time, discussed about CVD. Divided into groups, mine was Vanessa Fabian and Samuel. Anddd, we chose to have game stall. Fabian's nice idea of using TISSUE PAPER to aim into the bin 3m away, lmao. In the end, we combined different groups ideas. Then lectures started. First was Bio, I couldn't absorb a thing, at all. Tired :( Next was Econs, which was horrible rushing in between LT2 and the audi zzz. Because the teacher is so _____. People sitting at the last row had to answer her questions, and it was so unfair because even though we rushed, before econs some people already had lessons in the audi so they had the advantages of choosing seats at the front. Unlimited wants > Limited resources = Scarcity! :D I drifted in and out during the lecture, didn't dare to totally drift out... And had to put on an interesting expression because she'll ask you to answer questions if you look BORED-.- Mathhhs. Totally blank, couldn't absorb a thing, was so drained and hungry. Plus it was super cooollldd, from 8am to 12.05pm! Even with my sweater on. Lunchtime was super crowded!! Today all jc1s had break together, so it's like 700plus people, plus the JC2s. T_T" GP next, was planning to just sleep. But today's quite interesting :) Batman stuff! LOL. I don't see how it's link to GP though. :/ Whatever.

Was planning to take a nap after coming home. But I decided to start on my econs project since I'm already online. And I must perservere in keeping awake, so I can have a nice time falling asleep tonight :D

No lectures/lessons tomorrow, thank goodness. So I do not have to rush to understand what is taught today. And I totally forgot to get my bio slide notes from bookshop AGAIN!! ): Plus, tomorrow dismissal at 12.35!! :D Kay, I hope I can finish 2 out of 4 points for econs today! :/

Econs project time! Bye ):

P.S taking mrt to school in the morning is so coolxzxz, there's always seat because I take the 7.17am train which always come to my station totally empty!

all over again,

WHY?!?

A superhuman heart beats in me

2009-02-11T21:23:00.007+08:00

Maths teacher is funnyy. :D LOL, like laughing the whole time during lecture, almost. Plus Christine was sitting beside me, and you know how contagious her laughter is!! Even when I stopped laughing, then halfway through lecture I suddenly thought of the funny things &can't help laughing again! xD

Econs is SCARY. The teacher I mean. Zzz, so unpredictable. :O

Kayxzxz, it's just the beginning but I don't really get maths! Sequences :O Teacher goes fast, my brain goes slow. :( I can only attempt the questions with reference to the formulaes! :(

Bio is okay, SO FAR. :/

I've yet to attend any h1 CSE.

GP was booooringggg, everyone was practically dozing off!! Like, really. :O

Most of my free time was spent with Vanessa Theodore and Sebestian.

The rest of the class either had Chemistry or Geog or something :/

CCA orientation today, it was so last minute for me to decide to join GUITAR ENSEMBLE. :D Tried asking for 2ccas, the next would be interact club. But the teacher says we'll be busy with SYF, so maybe after SYF then take up two ccas bah :D

Right, both my civics tutor and bio teacher are in-charge of guitar!

Now there's a total of 6 zhssrians in yj!
Chen Huiting Christine JiaHui Royston ShiKang and me ~

The last 5 all transfered in after the orientation week, LOL.

Royston joined on Tuesday, ShiKang today.

It keeps getting moreeee ~

I am tired, but no, I'm not gonna sleep till I finish understanding my Maths fully and reading my Econs :(

Put on your pretty lies

2009-02-10T21:13:00.004+08:00

I slept like a pig from 530 - 830 ! :(

It's either Econs is really boring(because I was reading the lecture notes when I fell asleep) or that I'm really that tired :O I choose the latter, though. Raaaaaaah, HOW AM I GOING TO SLEEP TONIGHT? :( And then I'll have trouble keeping awake in school tomorrow. Plusplusplus it's cca orientationnn in the afternoon! ._.

I've yet to touch my Maths & Bio lecture notes. :/ Have to read through them later before I go to bed, if I can even fall asleep. :(

TPJC called my dad today! Hahaha. To make sure I'm going to my new JC. o.O

I don't know why but I suddenly felt very stress and insecure after waking up, like what if I'm not able to cope with my studies?!? :(

Kay, I keep drinking milk once I woke up just now :O Super thirsty and milk is sooooooo yummy! :D

It's like one in a million

2009-02-10T16:45:00.004+08:00

That's me and my one year older new friend from 119!

Kayxz, today started lectures. :O I don't know why my eyes feel sooo tired(?) dry(?) In other words, weird. Maybe it's due to the long hours in airconditioned rooms for lectures, drying up my contacts?! Had h2 maths, h1 GP, LONG BREAK(because others were having other lectures, mainly chemistry), h2 econs and lastly, h2 bio which lasted till around 2.30pm. The bio teacher's quite nice :) This girl from 121 came to sit beside me because her class had no one taking h2 bio except for another guy. Yep, talked a little :D &someone's phone rang during lecture, and the teacher was like saying he understood and gave another chance, because when he was in school, his friends played a prank on him, changing his ringtone to la bi xiao xin's and it rang during lecture LOL. xiao bai ~ xP The econs teacher is totally abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz. Keep scolding people lol. Then I think half the cohort taking h2 econs were slightly late, and we were made to stand for the entire hour TT Okay, I hope I don't get her as my tutorial teacher :X

Alright, happy birthday Stephen! Sorry, didn't go after school lol. (Right, no one from 119 knows about my blog yet :D)

Tomorrow's a loooong day, cca orientation after schoool. My OGL keeps wanting to find out who my sister is!! -.- HAHA, too bad he doesn't know my surname. Tsk. &he wants me to join basketball?!? Idkkkkk :(

Right, Royston joined YJC today and he wore the school uniform, looks like a retainee xD ROFL.

Gotta go read all my lecture notes now TT

Hope I don't fall asleeep! Really tired.. :/

Byebye!

You got a piece of me

2009-02-09T17:19:00.006+08:00

School was alright today. I'm still getting mixed up over the names. :/ It's like everyone's been together for 1 week 1 day and I only joined the class on Friday night. Was almost late for school, HAHAHA. I seem to be always late, or close to being late for schoool. Tskkkkkk! Okaayxzx, I think my register is 6 AGAIN. Lols. My 'classroom' is a computer lab, ROFL. Freezing coldxzx inside. Did you move my cheese? :) Break, went to General Office to ask about appeal stuff for poly studentssss. After break, it was talks talks talks in the hall. I WANTED TO PEE URGENTLY, ROFL. Zzz. Talk so muchhhy. -.- Then dismissed, but YJC's rule: Can only leave after 1.30pm. Worse than tpjc!! And to think I complained when I was at TPJC, theirs was 1pm. So there was more than an hour. I went with my classmate to General Office and saw the fickle-minded poly guy. HAHAHA -.- Then Christine came. Tried her uniform, too bigggy. So in the end, I bought 2 sets of everything. This year it's compulsory to buy college tie. :D Right, and my house is Thosson, ORANGE colour! :D Okay, went NorthPoint with Christine and JiaHui after school. Executive lunch @Swensens :DDD Couldn't finish my fish and chips -.- I want heartshaped ballooooooooons ~~ Then to Bishan, took the stupid ID photo for school's use. And homed. My bag was EMPTY in the morning, but by noon, it was filled with bulky uniforms, making my shoulders ache TT

Just added the whole of 119 in msn. :D I hope I can remember all their names and identify them by their names by Friday!!

EDITED.

Alright, I forgot to mention that I saw an old man lying at the bus stop today.... masturbating. Like O.O!! -.- LOL. Disgusting shitxzxz. Ahem ahem. -.-

Am happy right now. For idk what crap reason, -.-" Must be moodswinggggs :D Get happy for no reason, get sad for no reason, and so on. Plus the time of the month is coming, I can already feel it :O Sianxzxxzxz.

Lectures beginning tomorrow!! Am looking forward to them, but at the same time, scared that I can't cope, catch up and so on TT Plusplusplusplusplus!! My h2 maths clashes with my h1 cse, so I'm going for the repeat lesson for cse in the afternoon, BUT I realised, my afternoon repeat lesson of cse clashes with my bio!! Gossshhhhh, what to do?!?

My school's skirt isn't very long ! :D So no need alter, it's already above my knees lah, rofl. I think I'm just going to fold once :) Looooong legs, says Christine. LOL -.-

It's like the darkness is the light

2009-02-08T13:25:00.009+08:00

Kayxzxzxxzxz, I'm ultra boredxz now T_T

I need lunchhhhhh !! But can't find anyone to go with me. :/

Super duperxzxz bored + hungry + lazy = me :O

Anyone wants to deliver lunch right to my doorstep? :D

I'm like munching on chocolates now.

Ferrero Rocher, yummmmms. + fattening!

But I need proper foodie, for a proper meal.

Am lazy to cook instant noodles too :(

No one's at home :(

Did I made a wrong decision to take h2 bio?!?

Feels like I'm committing suicide. Or have committed suicide, yet to die only.

Alrighteeee, I've found a solution to my boredness + hunger.

Solution: to sacrifice my laziness and go cook!

I won't be bored because cooking will take up my time, and I won't be hungry after eating.

LOL -.-

I AM TAKING MRT TO SCHOOL TOMORROW FOR THE FIRST TIME!

Ultra coolness. :D

dumdumdeedumdumdeedumdum~

I found out I’m nothing without you

2009-02-07T22:19:00.001+08:00

I suddenly feel like joining SQUASH!!
Okay, so many ccas to consider.
squash interactclub photographicsociety

My OGL is from basketball.
He asked me to join :/

Alright, smile smile smileeeee !

Let's be each other's motivation from now onwards. :D

I lost quite a sum during gambling just now TT
&I ate Pringles even though I know it causes cancer. HAHA.

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2009-02-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

H2 Maths Econs Bio
H1 China Studies in English

I'm now in the Science stream :O
when all along I had wanted to be in the Arts stream, to take h1 bio.
but h2 cse requires an additional part called Independent Studies, which I don't likeeeee.
&i wanted to take literature badly, but am afraid.

Yes, I know I shouldn't feel like this. I screwed my own life up for not studying harder and scoring a single digit. What's done is done, no point being like this. But somehow, I just can't accept the fact, accept my fate.

Okay, whatever. I got what I wanted.

I should be happy.

Smileeeeeee.

what matters ultimately.

Don't stop, never give up

2009-02-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

My OGmate told me that another guy from my OG told the teacher I got into NYJC because I didn't turn up at TPJC today. LOL. He assumed I got into NYJC -.-"

Okay, just watched The Wedding Game with WeiQi just now. Hahaha, Love Matters is still funnier eh. Hmmmmmmm.

I'm anticipating tomorrow's coming. Looool. :D Doesn't matter where I end up in, I hate suspense and the unknown. :X Excited about choosing subject combination, new classmates, new uniform and new enviroment. Plus a new start! :)

Somehow meeting new people ain't so scary all of a sudden.

Don't eat pringles if ~~you do not want to die~~ you do not want to die earlier.

I don't wish to care, but I don't know why I do.
A part of me still refuses to give up.
I hope it will work... :)

Don't you know it's true what they say,
That life, it ain't easy,
But your time's coming around,
So don't you stop trying.

What we had has come and gone

2009-02-05T11:35:00.001+08:00

Tuesday.
I woke up at 5.45am when I was supposed to leave home at 5.45am!! :( Panicked like shit, because I was scared I'd be late. (Btw, tpjc has this rule that 1st time late = counselling, like wth -.-") School was alright, we had compulsory choir audition, like LOL I can't singg ~ :D Took the first opportunity to leave the school at 1pm (No one's allowed to leave before 1pm even if there's nothing on -.-") Went White Sands with my slowpoke! Purpose: To take a passport-size photo for submission of appeal to YJC (which in the end, we didn't even need to give -.-") Off to MJC next, submit appeals with Christine. WeiQi came too! :) Then took 39 to Yishun and changed bus to YJC. Okay, I think we were lucky, because the viceprincipal was there when we went. I didn't even know he was the vp!! And he took us to a room and looked at our results. So informal and non-scary. Hahaha, I think if I knew he was the vp at first I'd have been super nervous luh. :x He was ready to give us places there, but we didn't agree because if we had, we can't go other schools anymore even if our appeals over there are successful. So yeah, agreed to look for him on Friday if we want a place in YJC. Next, zhss then nyjc. Went back there because JiaHui had band audition at MJC at night so had to borrow instrument from zhss band. Then took 53 to MJC again. Righht, so the whole day was travelling from one end to another or something like that. (TPJC -> MJC -> YJC -> ZHSS -> NYJC -> MJC) Rofl. Reached home close to 9pm. :O Slept before 11pm, SUPER TIRED.

Wednesday.
My mum actually allowed me not to go back to TPJC anymore. I was soo happy!! Because that meant no more long travelling hours, waking up at 5am every morning. But it was so last minute decision not to go back anymore... So I decided to accompany JiaHui &SohLeng one last time today. So boring okaaay, talks talks talks all day long, sit till my butt and legs ached!! But it was still okay, since it didn't involve any OG group activities, so when our OGLs went off, we three sat together in my group :D I kept dozing off during the talks, though it wasn't intentional. :( Supposed to go for intro-lecture for MT but we ponned, pretending we were hmt students. xD Okay, then we did something not so right, but well, it's done anyway... I went SRJC with SohLeng, she wanted to appeal there, I wanted to look at the school. We took bus 81 and dozed off... Met JessL at her school's bus stop and in we go! School's not bad, I think nicer than TPJC... :/ When we came out of SRJC, it was raining. (Ytd it was raining too when I came out of YJC) We ran/walked in the rain and even had to stand at the traffic in the rain TT After we board 136 to AMK, the rain stopped. What is this?!? Lunched at PepperLunch, yuummmy ! :D Felt really tired so after reaching home, bathed and sleeeeept. :)

Thursday.
I think I'm officially schooless now. I'd either be a Mjcian or Yjcian tomorrow. Lolol. Either ways I don't mind. Anyway, my OGmates are pretty okay, friendly too. Thing is, almost everyone is appealing out too! LOL, so united we are in appealing out xP I think I'm the 3rd to successfully appealed out already. Everyday there's one missing, today it's my turn to be missing. :) Jesley(closest to me in my OG) called me this morning, but I was still sleeeeping. Oh yah, for these few days, I turned off my phone when sleeping, which is something I have never done before! HAHAHA, goes to show how badly I wanted my sleeep because everytime I nearly fell asleep, someone would sms/call me and the vibration disturbed me. Okay, meeting WeiQi & Christine later on for movie! <3 And before I forget, congrats Brenda ! :D

Byebye.

the pictures say it all ;

2009-02-04T13:08:00.000+08:00